Good for Me
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Sofia Jade
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Chapter 1
RORY
“…and so that means we’re moving to Minnesota.” My mom’s words drop like an anchor in my chest.
I blink hard, willing the sting in my eyes to pass before the tears betray me. I lose that battle quickly. They spill over anyway, hot and fast, dripping down my cheeks as I stare at her like she’s just told me we’re moving to the moon.
I swipe at my face, trying to wipe the tears away before my mom can notice, but it’s too late. She leans across the table and squeezes my hand tenderly.
“I know it feels like it’s all happening faster than you can keep up,” she says softly, looking apologetic. “But this is a good thing, Rory. Really. This is good news. Daniel and I have been seeing each other for a long time. He is good. Kind.”
Good news?
My chest tightens. I don’t even know how to process what she’s saying. It’s always been just the two of us. Me and her. That’s it. And I like it that way.
She gets me in ways that no one else ever has. She knows how I can’t fall asleep unless I journal all the thoughts that plague my mind before bed. How I’d rather spend a Friday night painting in the living room with headphones on than going to a party.
She knows I need stability and hate sudden changes.
And yet here she is, ripping me away from all that I know. From all that feels comfortable and safe.
I know she doesn’t intend it as such. She has always wanted the best for me. She probably thinks that Minnesota will be good for me too. More nature. More calmness. Away from the hustle and bustle of New York.
But the thing is, I’ve grown to like the hustle and bustle. Yes, New York is busy, and loud, and challenging, but it’s familiar. And lately, I’ve actually started to feel like I belong in my own skin.
I have my first real boyfriend, Zander, a boy I met in art class at school. I’ve made friends this past year. Real ones. Girls who understand I need time to recharge my social battery and don’t expect me to change because I think differently.
I've finally found acceptance, on the cusp of turning eighteen. My dream of attending NYU is right around the corner. Just a year left of high school before I’ll major in art and design.
And right when it all finally seemed to come together, when it finally started to feel right, she says we’re leaving it all behind.
“I’m sorry, baby. Please don’t cry.” Mom wraps her fingers with mine tightly. “I know this is a lot. But it’s a good thing. You’ll like it there, I promise. Daniel’s son, Forrest, is your age, and he’s a big softie. He’ll help you get settled, show you around the small town that we’ll live in. You’ll make friends. You’ve just started to bloom, baby. You’ll bloom there too.”
I swallow hard, trying to imagine a new house. A new school. New friends. New everything. And now, a new stepbrother.
I nod slowly, more out of instinct than understanding because this is going to take some time, journaling, and painting to fully process.
“Okay,” I whisper. “Let’s do this.” Because my default is to reassure her. I don’t want to make her feel bad about the fact that she’s fallen in love with a man in another state when she’s sacrificed so much for me as a single parent. So I pretend that I’m fine.
“When?” I ask, trying to keep the sadness out of my voice.
She sighs, picking at her napkin before she wipes the ice cream from the corner of her red lips.
“Next month. I want to get there before the school year starts so we have time to settle in, get you registered, decorate your room, adjust. Daniel hasn’t proposed yet, but we’ve talked about marrying later this year, perhaps during the holidays when Minnesota is covered in snow.”
One month.
I have one month to say goodbye to everything. To Zander. To my friends. To our neighborhood. To the apartment in Brooklyn with the hallway where Mom hung up all my elementary school artwork like it belonged in a museum.
“I’ll finish out work here and then take a few weeks off to get us settled in Minnesota,” she says. “Daniel’s already got the house ready. He even built you a desk nook for writing and drawing in your new room. He remembered I told him that art was your favorite thing to do.”
That does something weird to my chest. It presses on the part of me that wants to be mad, that wants to fight this whole thing tooth and nail. But it also…softens it because that’s one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me.
“He built me a writing desk?” I whisper.
She smiles gently. “He can build you anything you want. I even mailed him one of your paintings, and he hung it there, waiting for you to move in. He’s a good man, sweetie. You’ll see. The forest surrounding the back of the property—it’s beautiful. Lots of landscape to paint too. Imagine summer sitting in the backyards while looking up at nature instead of skyscrapers.”
I want to believe her. I really do.
She gives my hand a squeeze, her fingers sticky from the mint chocolate chip ice cream that’s melting in her bowl. That’s how it’s always been—mint chocolate chip for her, raspberry sorbet for me.
We started this tradition when I was seven, on nights when she was too tired to cook after a long shift in the call center where she’d started working when my dad left us.
We’d grab burgers and fries and end the night with ice cream while she shuffled through bills, and I recited everything that happened at school like it was breaking news.
Now, that life and rhythm are about to be rewritten. Because she fell in love. Because she met a man on a business trip who she can’t stop thinking about and loves enough to move states to move in with. She deserves this, and that’s what I’m clinging to.
Later that night, I sit cross-legged on my bed, the soft hum of my desk fan filling the silence as I pour into my journal my anxiety about the changes ahead. I glance around my room, my eyes skating over every poster, every stack of books, every random trinket that I’ve collected over the years.
It’s not perfect. But it’s mine. The idea of trading it in for some strange new space with strange new rules and a strange new family makes my stomach twist. I let out a sigh and try to shake myself out of the anxiety spiral. I think of Mom, of how happy she has looked these past couple of months. Now it makes sense why.
She deserves it. And I don’t want to hold her back from pursuing that happiness. So, I try to look for a new angle. A way of reframing this situation from something that scares the shit out of me to something exciting.
What if this isn’t the end of something, but the start? What if despite how it feels right now, this change isn’t a curse, but an opening? A clean slate. A chance to become someone new, someone more spontaneous and outgoing.
Maybe I could let go of the version of me that always played it safe, that always stayed small. Maybe I could reinvent myself. Grow into someone even I haven’t met yet.
And maybe…my new stepbrother won’t be so bad.
FORREST
There’s nothing like the sticky, unforgiving humidity of Minnesota in late August. It clings to your skin, sits heavy on your shoulders, makes every breath feel like you’re inhaling through warm cotton. And after a full day of hauling lumber and dragging myself across a job site, I feel like I’m drowning in it.
I swing my truck into the gravel driveway of my home, and as soon as I get out, I peel off my T-shirt and jeans. Standing in nothing but my soaked boxers, I grab the garden hose, twist the knob, and crank it on. Cold water blasts out instantly.
I tilt my head back and let it hit my face, run down my chest, drench my abs. Relief floods me. I could stay like this all day.
That is, until I see her.
She’s in the hammock, swaying back and forth gently with the hot summer breeze.
She’s seated sideways, legs curled up beneath her, a canvas balanced in her lap and a paintbrush dancing across it. She’s biting her bottom lip as she works, completely focused on her painting, headphones in her ears, lost to the world.
And I’m standing here soaked, shirtless, in my damn underwear staring at her like I can’t breathe.
She hops out of the hammock, her tiny cotton shorts hugging her hips. She tiptoes barefoot into the sunlight and tilts her head, smiling up at the sky, totally unaware she’s got an audience. The trees frame her like she’s part of the scenery—like she was painted into this place with the same brush that she’s holding.
I should turn around. I should go inside, grab some dry clothes, and pretend this never happened.
But I don’t.
I walk toward her, drawn by something that I can’t explain. Her head is still tilted as she sways slightly to the music, her hips rocking back and forth.
“Hey,” I finally say.
She jumps, startled. The canvas slips from her fingers, and I lunge forward, catching it just in time to save it from being ruined. It’s stunning. The trees, the sunlight, the soft green shadows. It’s my backyard exactly, but through her eyes. She’s somehow found a way to make it look even more magical. I wonder if she sees magic in every aspect of her life.
I wonder if she’ll see any when she looks at me.
“Oh my God,” she says, laughing nervously as she pulls her headphones off. “I didn’t see you there. Hi.”
Her smile is blinding. Her eyes, this deep shade of moss green, lock onto mine and hold. And just like that, I’m not hot or tired anymore. My body’s awake and I’m caught in her gaze, completely stunned.
She leans forward like she’s about to offer her hand in a shake, then quickly pulls it back. But even that small movement is enough to make me feel like she’s one end of a magnet and I’m the other. Pulled to her in every possible way.
“What are you doing out here?” I ask, voice rough.
“Painting,” she says. “These trees are incredible. You’re lucky.”
I want to tell her she’s the one that’s incredible. That she looks like something out of a dream I didn’t know I had.
I nod my head instead. “Yeah, it’s not bad living here.”
She tucks a lock of black hair behind her ear shyly. “I’ve never been surrounded by this much nature before. It’s wonderful. Did you know these are eastern white pines?”
I rub at the back of my neck. So, she’s beautiful, creative, and knows her trees. “Yeah, I think my dad might have mentioned that to me. We’ve got them all over town.”
She smiles. “The Native American tribes that live here call them the Tree of Peace. What a beautiful name to have.”Her gaze returns to the forest as she looks up at the tall centennials that are towering over us. Meanwhile, I can’t look away from her.
“Songbirds love these trees. I bet it’s simply magical out here in the mornings.” She shifts on her feet, her gaze dropping to my boxers for half a second before darting back up. Her cheeks pink as if she’s suddenly realizing something’s off. “Oh…are you…Forrest?”
That’s when it hits me. Of all the girls in the world to crash into my life and instantly fall for, it had to be her.
Rory.
My dad’s new girlfriend’s daughter. The girl I was told last night would be moving in for her senior year. The girl who, until this moment, I assumed would be some awkward transplant who stayed out of the way.
Instead, she’s this. This beautiful, creative angel, sent here to ruin my last year of high school.
I clear my throat and shift uncomfortably, suddenly very aware now of how naked I am. “Yeah. That’s me. You must be Rory.”
She bites her lip and nods, her eyes lingering for just a second too long before flicking away.
I drag a hand through my wet hair, my jaw tight. “All right, well, see you around.”
Then I turn and bolt like I’m being chased by demons. Because maybe I am.
Because that girl is going to be sleeping under the same roof as me for the next year, and somehow, I’m expected not to look at her.
