I Didn't Belong to You 1

JAMIE

Just as fast as our kiss had started, it came to an end. Finn grabbed both of my shoulders and pushed me slightly away from him.

“What the fuck, Jamie?” he cried.

Great, now he was angry.

“I wanted you to know how I felt about you, that’s all.” I kept my eyes trained on the floor.

“You’re a minor. Where do you think that would have led?” he asked, scolding me as if I was ten years old or something.

“Well, technically I’m eighteen now,” I tried to defend myself, my eyes still downcast.

When I felt ready, I looked up at him. He seemed to be pondering what I had just told him.

Wait, was he considering this?

He sighed. “You need to get your head out of the clouds, Jem—”

“Stop calling me that!” I snapped before he could even finish that sentence.

I don’t know why I did that. All I knew was that I felt so ashamed of myself. Now I could finally go on with my life and forget about him.

Before either of us could say another word, I turned around and walked toward the door.

I grabbed the doorknob, but before I could open the door and get out of here, I felt a hand wrap around my other wrist, and I was being pulled back into Finn’s arms.

I looked up at him, confused by his gesture. Before I even had the chance to ask him what was going on, he grabbed the back of my neck.

Then, without wasting another moment, he kissed me right on my lips.

At first, I was too shocked to respond. When I felt his tongue lick my bottom lip, as if asking me to grant him access to my mouth, I put both my hands on his chest to push him away from me.

He was stronger than me, so it wasn’t an easy feat, but he understood my request and took a few steps back.

“What are you doing? What does all this mean?” I was so confused.

Finn tucked a lock of hair behind my ear, gazing at me. I wanted to know what was going on in his mind right now.

“I have had a secret crush on you since I really got to know you. Why do you think I call you Jem?” he asked. “I couldn’t stay away from you. I wanted to taste those lips again.”

His revelation made my heart beat faster, and butterflies seemed to come alive in my stomach. I tried to make sense of what he had just said.

“But you said… I mean… What?” I couldn’t frame a single complete sentence in my confounded state.

“I know, and I’m sorry. I pushed you away because I wanted to be rational. Even if we both want this, in the end you’re still my best friend’s sister. You were untouchable—well, until now.” He gave me a smile at his last comment.

Untouchable? What?

Finn didn’t say anything else, pulling me closer to kiss me once more, with more hunger this time. I had been kissed before, but this was something else.

When his tongue tried to invade my mouth this time, I didn’t stop him.

Finn turned us around and backed me up until my back touched the door—the same door I had almost opened to get out of here.

“Fuck, Jem, your lips are so soft. Just like I imagined they would be,” Finn whispered over my lips.

One of his hands, which had been on my waist, moved up my body until it came to rest on my breast. All the air seemed to escape my lungs. It was the first time someone had touched me there.

“We can stop,” he said. “I mean, we don’t have to…

I didn’t want to stop!

I found courage in me that I hadn’t known I possessed. It was I who initiated the kiss this time. Finn was surprised by my boldness at first.

Then he smirked at me and took me by the waist, pressing my body to his. He reached down and wrapped his hands around my thighs. I gasped, instinctively securing my legs around his waist.

Oh my god, I can’t believe things got real! Am I really going to do this? Am I ready to go all the way with him?

All my doubts went out the window as he pressed me roughly against the door.

I couldn’t help but wonder if my first time would be against that door. I didn’t care as long as my first time was with Finn.

“I can’t believe I have you all to myself to do as I please.” He kissed all the way down my neck. “You’re driving me crazy!”

He rubbed his pelvis between my thighs, and I could feel how aroused he was.

Did I really affect him that much?

“Ah!” I let out a gasp against his lips.

Oh god, I could feel my underwear starting to get wet!

He grabbed me by the cheeks of my butt and walked over to the bed with me still in his arms. When he pressed me into the mattress, reality hit me, and it hit me hard.

“What is it?” He looked at me with concern. “Did I do something wrong?”

I wanted to tell him, but I was so embarrassed. Why hadn’t I mentioned it to him sooner? Would he reject me when he finds out?

He grabbed my face. “Come on, baby, tell me.”

“I’m…um…” Why was it so hard to say this? “I’m a… I’m still a virgin.” I finally let it out.

How on earth did I find myself in this situation? I wondered in my head.

When I woke up this morning, I hadn’t expected that I would be in Finn’s bed right now.

Was this the moment I lost my V card? Yes, yes it was. Someone else had already stolen my first kiss. Now I had a chance to make this right, and I would not let it slide.

One question remained—now that he knew this particular detail about me, would he back down?

He just looked at me and stroked my cheek lightly. “My beautiful Jem stayed pure for me to taste.”

Oh my god! Did he just say that?

Fudge!

He took my chin in his hand and made me focus my gaze on him. “Are you sure you want this?”

With shaking hands, I grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him toward me. “Yes, I’m sure,” I whispered.

Finn kissed me again, his tongue finding its way into my mouth. No one had ever kissed me like that. I wanted more. So much more.

I pulled my hands away from his neck and brought them down. They were still shaking, not with fear but with nervousness.

I don’t know where I found the courage to do this, but I started to unbutton his shirt. If my hands weren’t shaking so much, I would have done this much faster.

Finn grabbed my wrists with one hand. “Hey, slow down, baby, slow down. We have all night.”

“I’m sorry. I’m just nervous.” I closed my eyes, trying to calm my nerves.

He kissed my forehead. “It’s understandable.”

He got up from the bed and unbuttoned his shirt himself, all the while looking me right in the eye. I licked my bottom lip in anticipation, wanting to see more of him.

“Does my little Jem like what she sees?” Finn gave me a wink and moved to unbutton his pants.

Okay, things were starting to get real right in front of me.

I was too shy to look at him or to answer him. I felt my cheeks heat. This was the first time someone had undressed in front of me.

“Look at me, baby. Don’t be shy on me now,” he said.

I took a peek. He was only in his boxers—tight black boxers. I could see the bulge where his man shaft was. Judging by its outline, it was not small.

What did I get myself into? I wondered, unable to tear my gaze away from it.

Finn chuckled. “Eyes up here, baby.”

I swallowed, letting my eyes move up his body—which was pure muscle.

Shit!

With a smirk, Finn held out his hand. I took it without hesitation, and he helped me sit up.

He grabbed the hem of my shirt. “It’s your turn, Jem.”

He started to pull my shirt up, smiling at me. My entire body shivered in anticipation of what was to come.

“You’re so beautiful, Jem,” he said when I was left wearing only my underwear.

Finn took my face in his hands. “You’re sure you still want this?”

I caressed the side of his face. “Yes.”

He kissed me on the lips, moving one hand behind me to unclasp my bra. I quickly crossed my arms over my chest to hide my breasts from him. I may want this, but I was still shy.

“You don’t have to hide from me.” Finn grabbed my wrists and gently pulled my arms away from my body.

Then he leaned forward and took my nipple in his mouth. The sensation that I felt was indescribable.

We had only started, and I was already feeling like this? The anticipation for more was driving me crazy...