šGALentine's DAYšPart of the Wolf Wars-Universe: Seth and Ellie are happily married, but they haven't gotten pregnant yet. Ellie wonders if it's her fault. Should she use her grandmother's gift? And will the rest of her family find their own happiness after everything that's happened in the past?
Age Rating: 18+
Ellie
I stare out the upstairs window toward the grounds below. Itās beautiful, it really is. Just as I imagined it would be when I first approved the plans for the new building.
Our home, and the home of the people who work here. Humans and werewolves working side by side. Working for their king and queen.
Of course, there are still occasional issues, but each packās Alpha or the human liaison mostly deals with them.
Seth and I are not much more than figureheads. Weāre only asked to deal with issues that the Alphas canāt handle or issues with human/werewolf relations.
Itās vastly different from when humans and werewolves shared the world. If a werewolf finds his mate to be human, now everything is discussed in the open with their families.
There will never be another war because the humans think their daughters or sons are being stolen away from them because they are the mate of a werewolf. Itās been a year since the war ended. I should be happy, but I feel like something is missing.
I look out at the small garden and hear the screams of the pups as they chase each other, laughing and playing.
I sigh heavily. Perhaps Iām being impatient, but there is always that thought in the back of my mind.
What if Seth and I are never blessed with pups? What if, because we werenāt first-chance mates, we can never have children?
My thoughts drift back to my grandfather. The last words he said before the poison blade killed him.
āThe last of your grandmotherās gift. Use it wisely.ā
Would it be selfish to use it for myself to allow us to conceive a child?
I donāt think so, though. Olivia became pregnant almost as soon as Murdoch had marked her.
Now she has two beautiful boys.
Iām so lost in my thoughts that I only realize Seth is there when his strong arms wrap around me and pull me into his chest.
He nips the mark on my neck, and I moan, immediately removing the negative thoughts that plague my mind.
He looks down into the garden.
āPerhaps we should close off the private gardens for now?ā he suggests.
He knows exactly what Iām feeling. He feels it through the bond.
Thatās why he suddenly appears, seemingly from nowhere, when my mind wanders. I shake my head.
āI like to watch them play. I justā¦ā
I donāt have time to finish the sentence as Iām turned around in his arms.
Seth rakes his fingers through my hair, then his lips press roughly against my own in a dominant kiss. I moan as his fingertips slide underneath my shirt.
Little shockwaves trail in the wake of his touch, and suddenly feel like Iām on fire.
A small gasp escapes me, and as my mouth opens, he takes the opportunity to plunder my mouth with his tongue.
I canāt get enough of the taste of him as I kiss him back just as greedily. Itās always like this when he touches me. The mate bond is as strong as ever it was. At that moment, I forget about any worries that may be coursing through my brain.
I love that he is trying to distract me, but when we stop, the worry and sadness will return. The fear that I may never be able to give Seth the child that he craves.
I know he wants a child. I can sense it through the mate bond. In the same way, he can feel my sadness at the fact that I havenāt been able to give him one.
Perhaps there is something wrong with me. I think of Olivia and her two boys. It doesnāt seem fair that she has two pups, and I canāt even have one.
I know I shouldnāt be, not with everything I have, but I feel a little jealous of Olivia. What I wouldnāt give to have two little pups running around the place.
She often comes to visit, and I love seeing my godsons, but itās not the same. Not the same as having your own. Seth reluctantly pulls away.
āWe should really get ready,ā he reminds me.
I smile, and this time itās not forced.
***
Itās been six months since I last saw my dad. Years since Iāve been back to the pack that first took me in.
Seth has never seen my dadās pack, and Iām excited to show him the place.
I want him to see where the only few moments of happiness in my childhood were spent.
My dadās lovely house, where I used to sit in the kitchen while he made me chocolate chip pancakes. Or if it wasnāt him, it was Millie.
I wonder if Millie is okay. I feel a little guilty that I didnāt ask after her. I hadnāt known her for long, but she was always kind.
I should have asked him the last time he was here, but that was at our mating ceremony and coronation. Everything was so busy that I didnāt get a chance.
My dad doesnāt know weāre coming. One of the perks of being the Queen and King is that you can make surprise visits to each of the packs.
Last month, we visited Clayton. The look on his face when we appeared in his officeāfirst it was shock, and then happiness.
I know Clayton misses Seth, and Seth misses Clayton just as much. They were overjoyed to see one another.
Iām sure my dad will feel just the same.
āDid you manage to persuade Arvid?ā
Seth looks at me and chuckles.
āIt took some doing, but yes. He will follow in the car with the luggage.ā
I grin like the Cheshire cat.
Seth and I are going to travel in our wolf forms. With everything thatās happened, our wolves never really had a chance to bond.
We run together occasionally when we get the chance, but this trip will be the longest that our wolves will have spent together.
They can run and play. Be themselves for once and forget about their duties as King and Queen, just as Seth and I will be able to.