I never really saw myself as a dad until Hannah came into my life.
The moment she stepped into the clubhouse, and into my world, I started imagining our future. I saw her carrying our child and suddenly understood why Axyl was so keen on keeping Ali pregnant.
If reality is anything like my dreams, I’ll never want to see her not pregnant. The thought of her considering our future together fills my heart with joy and pride.
I want everything with her.
“So, does this mean you’re my ol’ lady?” I ask her.
It’s been a week since the girls’ birthday party and family dinner.
We’ve been inseparable, except when we had to work. We’ve talked a lot about our future, and I couldn’t be happier that we want the same things.
“I’ve always been yours. It just took me longer to realize it,” she says.
We’re snuggled up on one of the clubhouse couches, watching the kids play. The moms decided we needed to restart our weekly dinners.
After the Ali situation went south last year, we were all too focused on keeping her and the girls safe to have these dinners. We were all too busy.
“I would have waited forever for you, sweetheart. You’re worth the wait and more. I’m just glad you didn’t make me wait that long. Only two years.”
She snorts, and the clubhouse doors swing open to reveal Axyl with a goofy grin on his face.
“Did you get some of that fancy yoga sex you were talking about last week?” I ask.
Axyl shoots me a glare before a hand comes up behind him and slaps the back of his head.
“Talking about our sex life to everyone again?” Aliana retorts. “Our family doesn’t need to know about how you like to have your leg up to your ears as I’m sucking your cock and have my finger in your ass.”
The clubhouse goes silent as Axyl’s face turns from pained to angry.
This just got interesting. We haven’t had entertainment like this since Ali shot Westyn last year after causing the Cannon to come out.
“I do not! Don’t start spreading that shit around. No one will take me seriously if you do, Aliana.
“Is that what you want? Your husband to be walked all over? I’m the VP! I can’t have my brothers doing that,” Axyl says, pretending to be offended.
“Is it a lie though?” Ali retorts.
“Yes! You know it is!”
Everyone in the room bursts out laughing.
“Do I like you sucking my cock? Hell yes, I do. You take my cock like a fucking champ. I especially love the way you shove it down your throat while you’re—”
Ali clamps a hand over his mouth.
“Don’t you fucking finish that sentence! You will be sleeping on the couch or I’ll make you stay here.” Ali’s face is bright red.
Aliana embarrassed? Oh, this must be good. She’s never embarrassed. Ali removes her hand from his mouth and walks over to her dad.
“I really didn’t need to hear what I just did, princess,” Robert says.
“Blame your son-in-law,” Ali says.
Axyl turns his attention toward me. “To answer your question, no, I didn’t get any hot yoga sex. I got road head, but that’s not why I was smiling.
“We just went to the baby doctor and got to see Brantley. He’s healthy as a horse. He’s measuring a week bigger than they originally thought, but everything is just fine.”
“Well, that’s good. Can we eat now?” Westyn chimes in.
“Yeah, the food’s ready. Come on and eat,” someone says.
Everyone gets up and rushes toward the dining room, sounding like a stampede.
Dinner goes by with all of us eating, joking, and just enjoying each other’s company. We joke and play around, and the moms had to stop a food fight before it could turn into an actual fight.
The men cleaned up since the women cooked. The parents went home, taking the kids with them, leaving just the executive officers and the ol’ ladies. We talk for a few more hours before everyone gets up to leave.
“All right, everyone. Head on home. Church in the morning,” Westyn says, walking toward his room. I grab Hannah’s hand and pull her up and into my arms.
“You ready, babe?”
“Yeah, take me home, babe.”
I’ll take her home all right. Back to my place, where she belongs.
She doesn’t know it yet, but I bought us a house. It just so happens to be close to where Ali and Axyl have theirs.
I’m pretty sure all the guys are planning on building a house, or buying one, to put on the land. It’s only a few minutes from the clubhouse, so that makes it easier.
I just hope she likes it. I haven’t furnished it yet because I wanted her to help me. I wanted our home to be a combination of both mine and Hannah’s taste. Maybe it was a bit presumptuous, but I knew I’d have her in the end.
“Your wish is my command,” I say.
Since she had been avoiding me the past few months, I had missed having her in my arms—it felt like a piece of me was missing.
Call me a pussy, but I don’t give two fucks. She had me by the balls from the first time I saw her, and I’m not ashamed to admit it. “Tomorrow, I want to take you and show you something.”
“What’s that?” she asks when we both get onto the bike.
It’s not too cold, but it’s not warm either, but that doesn’t matter. The ride is worth it on a night like tonight.
“Your place or the clubhouse, babe? You’ll find out soon enough.”
We have a house, but I’ve been crashing at the clubhouse. If she’s okay with it, we can just head back inside.
“Let’s go to my place. It’s closer to the clinic. The clubhouse is a bit of a drive from there. Plus, I’ve been swamped at work and people aren’t too happy about Ali’s absence.”
“Alright, your place it is. What’s your schedule like tomorrow? I want to show you something before you head to work or right after. I only have church in the morning.”
“I don’t have to be in until noon. We open late on Fridays, at noon, and close at five. I’ll probably head in around eleven to catch up on paperwork.”
“Perfect. I don’t have church until eleven, so we can check out your surprise, then you can go to work and I’ll head back to the clubhouse.”
“That sounds good, babe. I’m beat and need a shower…but I haven’t seen you in a few months…so maybe we could spend some time cuddling in bed…naked.”
Her suggestion sounds way better. I could point out that it’s her fault for being MIA these past few months, ignoring my daily attempts to reach her.
But that would make me a petty jerk, and I’m not a jerk to the people I care about. Hannah is the woman I plan to spend the rest of my life with. I can’t do that if I’m a total ass.
“I like the sound of that, my love. I know you’ve been swamped with Ali out, so let’s just forget about our time apart.”
When Hannah first met my parents, my mom instantly fell for her. I haven’t met her parents yet—understandable, considering they’re mafia.
I plan to change that soon. The ring I’ve been hiding at Ali’s place is practically burning a hole in the drawer.
If I have my way, she’ll be wearing my ring by the end of the year. Hell, I might even try to get her pregnant.
Now that I’m picturing her pregnant with my kids, I can’t shake the image. I’ve been waiting for this girl to say yes for two damn years, and I’m not waiting any longer for what I want.
“Take me home, big guy.” She puts on her helmet and climbs onto my bike after me.
The feel of her body pressed tight against mine, her thighs gripping my hips.
The way her hands rest on my abdomen under my shirt—she’s done it since the first time I took her on my bike, though I’m not sure why.
The way she rests her head in the middle of my back. Even though I can’t really feel her head because of the helmet, I know it’s her and it’s comforting.
I bought her a helmet after the first time I took her on my bike. She’s the only woman I’ve ever had on my bike. We don’t let women ride on the back of our bikes unless they’re our ol’ lady.
Axyl had Lana on the back of his bike even though she wasn’t his ol’ lady, but she was his wife. They were always a toxic pair, but they didn’t realize it until things blew up between them two years ago.
He made Aliana his ol’ lady as soon as she came back, which, let’s be honest, she’s been his since we were all teens. Lana was just his second choice.
I’ve never had a woman on my bike except for club members’ sisters, and I don’t plan on having another one. Hannah is the one for me, and anyone who thinks it’s too fast can fuck off.
Every year, a few of us and our families take a vacation somewhere for a few days to a week.
On this trip, not only will my brother be back from the SEALs, but I’m going to either make this woman my wife or put my ring on her finger.
Either way, she’s going to be mine and no one is going to stop that from happening.
Hannah may have killed people, but so have I. I’m the Reaper for a reason, and I’ll make sure she never has to get her hands dirty again.
I’ll be damned if she has to darken her soul any more than she already has. I’ll darken mine more before I let her do the same because, with her, my soul is never dark.
She’s the light that illuminates my entire being, and I’ll make sure that light never goes out.
