
Envious Hearts
Author
Oonagh C. K.
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Chapters
29
Chapter 1
CIARA
The bathroom smelled like expensive soap and pure panicâpanic that gripped every part of my body like I gripped the marble sink.
My reflection in the mirror showed a whole other person, someone with wild eyes and flushed cheeks. Despite the arctic blast of the AC, a bead of sweat crept down my temple.
This was bad.
No, this was catastrophic.
My phone was already in my hand before I could talk myself out of it. I tapped the name of my best friend, Olivia Quinn.
She picked up after one ring like sheâd been expecting this call. âTell me you crushed it.â Her voice carried hopeâripe for shattering.
I let out something between a laugh and the noise of a dying seal. âI made it fifteen minutes in before running to the bathroom, soâŚwhat do you think?â
âCiara.â The sheer amount of disappointment packed into those three syllables couldâve powered New York City for days.
Defending myself, I cried, âI panicked! He didnât say a word, Liv! Just sat there, staring at me, lookingââ I stopped myself, then huffed, pressing a hand to my forehead.
âLooking what?â
I groaned because, god help me, no human should be allowed to look like Matthew Caldwell. âLike he was sculpted by the godsâand heâs somehow hotter in real life! Seriously, Liv, I think he pays magazines to Photoshop him uglier!â
âOkay, first of all, rude. Iâve seen him in Forbesâ âForty Under 40,â and now I feel left out. Second, you knew this going in. Matthew Caldwellâs always been rich, successful, and good-looking. I thought you had a plan! What happened to that whole âIâm a bossâ speech?â
Scoffing, I said, âTurns out Iâm not so much of a boss when the god himself is judging me. He wasnât even engaged with my presentationâdidnât ask a single question. He just sat there like he was waiting for it to be over.â I swallowed the lump in my throat.
âIf I bomb this,â I continued, my voice low as reality set in, âIâm done. My careerâs on the line here. If I donât land Caldwell Enterprises as a client, Iâll lose my job. Then what? I move back in with my parents at twenty-six? And what if I run intoââ
I couldnât say his name. Olivia, of course, didnât need me to.
With a softened voice, she said, âCiara, youâre killing it in New York, and youâve only been there for about a year, after being savagely dumped by whatâs-his-face, who youâd dated since you were fourteen. Youâre not running back. Iâm not letting you.â
âBut if I failââ
âThen youâll pick yourself up and prove everyone wrong because thatâs what you do. Thatâs what youâve always done.â
I exhaled, still shaky but steadier. âRight.â I locked eyes with my reflection and gave myself a firm nod. âOkay. Iâve been in the bathroom long enough. He might think I ran for my life, so I should head back.â
âGive him hell!â
After we said goodbye, I ended the call, shoved my panic into the deepest, darkest pit of my soul, and pulled open the door.
The second I walked back into the conference room, the air shifted in my lungs.
Even though Iâd already spent fifteen minutes with Matthew, the sight of him seated at the head of the sleek glass table still took my breath away. His photos had done nothing to prepare me for his sheer presence.
Up close, he was even worseâas in, unfairly attractive.
His perfectly styled dark hair was just tousled enough to make my fingers itch to touch it. His chiseled jaw, sharp cheekbones, and calculating hazel eyes could stop trafficâand my brain. His clean-cut suit fit so well that the lines of his body were unmistakable.
And the way his sleeves were slightly rolled up, exposing his forearms, only confirmed the hours heâd likely spent in the gym.
No one should be this distractingâespecially someone who hadnât spared me a second glance.
Not during my presentation, and not now.
Even the way he sat, with one hand resting against his chin, screamed both power and disinterest at the same time.
I forced my spine straight, ignored the fact that my face was burning, and walked to my seat, my heart slamming against my ribs. Professional, I told myself. Be professional. Youâre not here to stare at him, Ciara. I took a deep breath and opened my mouthâ
âYou can go,â Matthew said without looking up from his papers.
âWhat?â I blinked, thinking Iâd misheard him.
He leaned back and studied me before adding, âIâve seen enough.â
My jaw dropped, but then I quickly picked it up. âBut I have more to show you.â
âI donât need to see more.â He stood, buttoned his jacket, andâwithout another wordâwalked out of the room.
For a second, I merely sat there, stunned. Then humiliation hit me like a punch to the gut. I packed up my things, keeping my movements slow and controlled.
Because if I rushed, I might break.
I walked out of the meeting room into an empty hallway that led straight to the elevators. My eyes burned with the tears I refused to let out.
My phone rang, startling me, and I fished it out from the bottom of my bag.
âHi, Mom. Can I call you back later? Iâm just leaving a meeting, and this isnât the best time.â
âWe were wondering if you could attend Aunt Carolâs birthday party next week,â my mom said, with Aunt Carol whispering in the background. Only my mom could immediately remind me of another reason why going back home was not an option.
âIâm so sorry. Iâd love to, but Iâm swamped with work.â It killed me to lie to her, but finding a new job would technically be work, right?
And that was what it looked like Iâd be doing for a while.
Footsteps suddenly sounded in the hallâhis, most likely. And they were getting closer and closer.
Quickly ducking around a corner, I whispered, âSorry, Mom, I have to go.â I didnât let her respond before I hung up on her.
Matthewâs voice carried down the corridor, low and smooth, freezing me as I listened. âShe doesnât seem qualified. Doesnât seem to know what sheâs doing.â He came to a stop by the elevators. âI need someone with more experience. Sheâs too green.â
My stomach dropped, even though I shouldnât care this much. It was business, not personal.
Or, it shouldâve been. But he had made it feel personal.
Barely listening to my presentation. Hardly looking up from his laptop the whole time Iâd been talking. The way his gaze had raked my body the moment Iâd met him.
I squeezed my eyes shut, waiting until the soft chime of the elevator doors signaled that I was clear to move. Then, I stepped out of my hiding spot, hit the down buttonâand immediately regretted it.
The elevator dinged open, and there he was, standing inside, his hands in his pockets, looking straight at me.
The air crackled. My heart thundered. He had me transfixed.
Until he slowly tilted his head. âWell?â His deep voice was steady. âAre you getting in or not?â






























