World's Most Eligible Texan
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Nothing could make world-weary Aaron Black's blood race anymore. Until the magical night he danced with Pamela Miles. The debonair man-about-town and the shy schoolteacher shared a night of intense desire...only, she disappeared the next morning. Determined to find his ladylove, Aaron soon tracked Pamela down and discovered she carried his child. Could he convince the proud country girl that his marriage proposal came not from duty but from a love even bigger than Texas?
One
âWell, I can tell you whatâs making you nauseated, Pamela.â
She sat on the examining table with her legs crossed, the silly light cotton gown covering her as she faced white-haired Doctor Woodbury who had been treating her since she was born. She tilted her head to one side and waited, long accustomed to his blunt manner.
âYouâre pregnant.â
âPregnant!â Pamelaâs head swam and she clutched the table she was seated on with both hands. Pregnant. It was only once. One night three weeks ago. She couldnât be.
Dr. Woodbury was talking, but she didnât hear anything except the ringing in her ears. Her teaching jobâthey wouldnât want her. Pregnant! She was going to have a baby. BabyâŠbaby⊠The word echoed in her mind. Impossible! But of course, it was possible. That night with Aaron Black. She closed her eyes and clung tightly to the cold metal, feeling as if she were going to faint.
âKnowing you as Iâve done through all these years, Iâm guessing youâll want to keep this baby.â
Dr. Woodburyâs words cut through the wooziness she was experiencing. âŠkeep this babyâŠ
She opened her eyes and placed her hand protectively against her stomach. âYes! Of course, Iâll keep my baby,â she snapped, her head clearing swiftly. How could he think she wouldnât!
His blue eyes gazed undisturbed at her as he shrugged stooped shoulders. âAfter she had you, your mother had two abortions. She wasnât having any more babies.â
âIâm not my mother,â Pamela said stiffly, suddenly seeing how not only Dr. Woodbury, but everyone else in town would see herâwith morals as loose as her motherâs had been. The town tramp. That was what Dolly Miles had been called too many times. Pamela remembered the teasing, the whispers, and worse, the steady stream of men who came and went through the Milesâs tiny house.
She was shocked to learn there had been two abortions. When she thought about it, though, she wasnât surprised. Dolly thought of no one except herself. Two abortions. Pamela had a strange sense of loss. She might have had brothers or sisters. She pressed her hand against her stomach as she tried to focus on what Dr. Woodbury was saying.
âIâm keeping my baby.â
âI thought you would,â he said complacently. âYou seem in perfectly good health. Iâm going to put you on some vitamins, and then you make an appointment to come back this time next month.â
The rest of the hour she moved in a daze that lasted through running errands, getting her vitamins and heading to the Royal Diner to eat. It was early for lunch and the diner would be empty, which suited her fine. Right now she didnât feel like seeing anyone. Thank heavens Aaron Black had gone back to Spain. She would have three or four months before her pregnancy would show, so she would have to make her plans in that time.
The brisk wind was chilly, catching the door to the diner and fluttering the muslin curtains at the windows, following her into the diner in a gust that swirled dried leaves around her feet. The little brass bell over the door tinkled. She glanced at the long, Formica counter top, the red vinyl-covered barstools and headed toward an empty booth along the wall. The jukebox was quiet. She put her head in her hands, her elbows propped on the table, while she thought about her pregnancy.
âHi, Pamela,â came a sharp voice, and she looked up at Sheila Foster, who plopped a plastic-coated menu into her hands. The Royal DinerâFood Fit For A King! was lettered across the top. Trying to focus on the words, Pamela skimmed the menu and ordered one of Mannyâs delicious hamburgers and a chocolate malt, knowing she would have to start thinking in terms of healthy meals because of the baby. The baby. She was going to have a baby. She was pregnant!
She couldnât believe the news. First sheer terror had gripped her because she didnât know how to be a mother and being unwed and pregnant was still scandalous in Royal, Texas. But the terror was quickly replaced with awe. And then when Dr. Woodbury had asked her if she would keep her baby, reality had come and sheâd known she wanted her baby with every fiber in her body.
A precious baby all her own. She had never once expected to have her own baby. She had rarely dated. What Aaron had found in her, even for one night, she couldnât imagine. Except she had easily fallen into his arms, succumbed to his charms, returned his lovemaking with unbridled passion.
As she sat waiting for her lunch, her mind went back to that magical night of the Texas Cattlemanâs Club gala.
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The gala had been given to celebrate the European dignitaries who were visiting Royal from Asterland and Obersbourg and to thank the members of the local Texas Cattlemanâs Club for their help in the rescue of Princess Anna von Oberland, now married to Greg Hunt. It was a glittering array of diplomats and titled people including Asterlandâs Lady Helena Reichard. It had been a cold, clear night, and when Pamela had walked into the light and warmth of the ballroom, she had wondered what she was doing there. Yet, it had sounded like fun when Thad Delner, her recently widowed principal, had told her he had to make an appearance and would she like to go, since his invitation included a guest.
While Thad had talked to friends and she had talked to people she knew, theyâd drifted apart. As she stood in a circle of acquaintances, she felt compelled to turn. Glancing across the room, she looked into the green-eyed gaze of a tall, ruggedly handsome man. Looking dashing in his black tux and white shirt, he had stared at her too intently, a little too long to be a casual glance. Broad-shouldered yet lean, he had short, neatly combed dark brown hair. His features were rugged with a prominent bone structure, but it was his thickly lashed green eyes that mesmerized and held her.
As she gazed back at him, time was suspended. Her pulse jumped: it was as if he had reached across the room and touched her.
Then Justin Webb had spoken to him, and heâd turned away to talk to his friend.
She knew who he was. Aaron Black. Older, an American diplomat stationed abroad, he was from Royal. Everyone in town knew the Black family. Old money, but down-to-earth good people.
Trying to concentrate and forget the look from the disturbing stranger, she turned back to the conversation at hand.
And then she was looking into his eyes only a few feet from her as he extended his hand. âFun party. Iâm Aaron Black.â His voice was low, husky and mellow. Sheâd placed her hand in his and his grip was solid, his fingers warm, curling around hers.
âIâm Pamela Miles.â
âNative?â
âYes,â sheâd answered, wondering how he could possibly not know. Sheâd thought everyone in town knew Dolly Miles, and that Dolly had a daughter.
âI havenât spotted your date hovering over you.â
Sheâd laughed. âYou wonât. Iâm here with Thad Delner, my principal. I teach second grade at Royal Elementary, and Thad has been recently widowed. He had an invitation for tonight, and thought he needed to attend briefly to represent Royal Elementary, so he asked if I would like to come along. Iâve never been to one of these balls before.â
âWell, since no date will be breathing down my neckâwant to dance?â
When sheâd nodded, heâd taken her arm to steer her to the dance floor and then she was closer than ever to him, aware of the cottony scent of his stiffly starched shirt, his cologne. Her fingers brushed his neck as she put her arm on his shoulder to dance. His hand holding hers was warm. They moved together as if they had danced with each other forever.
His cheekbones were prominent and his lower lip full, sensual. She realized she was staring at his mouth, and her gaze flew back up to meet his. She saw fires in the depth of his emerald eyes. Once again her gaze was caught and held by his and conversation fled while her heart drummed. As the moment stretched, making her breathless, tension crackled between them. With an effort of will she looked away.
âTell me about your life, Pamela,â he said. âYouâre here with your principal. Does this mean thereâs no guy in your life right now?â
âYes, it does. I lead an ordinary teacherâs life except Iâm going to Asterland in two days as an exchange teacher.â
âYouâre the one!â Aaronâs eyebrow arched, and he tilted his head as he leaned away slightly to study her. âThis is my lucky day. Iâm with the American Embassy in Spain. On weekends we can see each other,â he said with a warmth in his voice that sent a tingle through her. âLucky Asterland. Itâs a pretty place. Very different from West Texas,â he drawled.
She laughed. âIâd imagined that.â
Sheâd listened to him talk as they danced through two more dances, and then his arm had tightened and they were dancing cheek-to-cheek and her pulse was racing.
Sheâd danced once with Matt Walker, an old friend and one of the local ranchers, and then Aaron was back, claiming her for another dance. And she was aware of other women watching Aaron, and she knew they wanted to be dancing with him, and she could understand why they did. As theyâd spun around the floor to a fast number, she looked at women in fancy gowns they had bought for thousands of dollars in elegant boutiques here in Royal or in stores in Dallas and Houston while she was in her simple black sheath she had purchased for a little over fifty dollars. She was amazed that Aaron was dancing with herâamazed and glad. And in some ways, it seemed the most natural thing in the world to be in his arms, moving with him, looking into his green eyes.
After an hour, between dances, Thad Delner had joined them. As soon as she introduced him to Aaron, Thad had turned to her to tell her he was ready to leave. Before he could finish, Aaron broke in.
âIâll take Pamela home, Mr. Delner. Iâm glad you brought her.â
Thad Delnerâs blue eyes focused on her with a questioning look. âIs that all right with you, Pamela?â
Sheâd nodded, breathless, amazed Aaron was offering to take her home âYes, itâs fine,â she said, looking at Aaron, whose rugged handsomeness made her heart race.
âAll right. You two go back to your dancing. Iâll talk to you before you leave for Asterland, Pamela.â
âThanks for bringing me, Thad,â sheâd said and then she was back in Aaronâs arms to dance again.
When heâd invited her to come by his house for a drink, and sheâd accepted, the dreamlike quality of the evening continued. At Pine Valley, an exclusive area of fine homes, Aaron slowed for large iron gates to open. As a gate swung back, he drove past it and waved at the guard.
The stately mansions sobered her. The lawns were vast and well-cared-for, the houses imposing, and his world of wealth and privilege seemed light years from her world of teaching and budgeting and ordinary living.
âWhy so quiet?â Aaron asked. The lights of the dash threw the flat planes of his cheeks into shadow. When he looked at her, she could feel his probing look. Handsome, dashing, he was incredibly unique.
âI was just thinking about the differences in our lives,â she said, looking at the palatial Georgian-style houses with sweeping, constantly tended lawns. âWeâre very different, you and I,â she said solemnly.
âThank heavens,â he said lightly and picked up her hand to brush her knuckles across his cheek. âIf you were just like me, I wouldnât be taking you home with me now, I can promise.â
She smiled at him and relaxed, but the feeling returned again when they entered his house and he turned off an alarm.
âGates, guards and alarms. Youâre well-protected.â
He shrugged. âThis is a family home. Ninety percent of the time, no one lives here,â he said, taking her arm as he switched on a low light in the entryway.
âIâm sorry you lost your parents,â she said, remembering headlines several years ago that had told about the plane crash in Denmark when his parents and six other Texans had been killed.
âThanks. What about your parents?â
âTheyâre deceased,â she said stiffly, amazed again that he didnât know about her mother. She had never known her father and wasnât certain her mother even knew which man fathered her.
Aaron had led her through a kitchen and down a wide hall into a large family room elegantly furnished with plush navy leather and deeply burnished cherrywood furniture. An immense redbrick fireplace was at one end of the room and a thick Oriental rug covered part of the polished oak floor. He crossed the room to the fireplace to start the fire and in minutes the logs blazed. Following him into the room, she wandered around to look at oil paintings of western scenes. When she glanced back at him, heâd shed his tux coat. As her gaze ran across his broad shoulders, she drew a deep breath. He removed his tie and unfastened his collar and there was something so personal in watching him shed part of his clothing, that her cheeks flushed.
As soon as he moved to the bar, he glanced at her. âWine, beer, whiskey, soda pop, what would you like to drink?â
âWhite wine sounds fine,â she answered, watching his well-shaped hands move over sparkling crystal while she sat on a corner of the cool leather sofa. He joined her, handing her a glass. When he sat down, he raised his glass. âHereâs to tonight, the night we met, Pamela,â he said softly and his words were like a caress.
While she smiled at him, she touched her glass lightly to his. âYou think tonight is going to be memorable? Youâre a sweet-talkinâ devil, Aaron Black. Youâre dangerous,â she said, flirting with him and watching his green eyes sparkle. Yet even as she teased him, she had a feeling that his words, tonight, the night we met, would stick with her forever.
âIâm dangerous? I think thatâs good news,â he said, sipping his wine and setting it on the large glass and cherrywood table in front of them. He scooted closer to her and reached out, picking up locks of her hair and letting them slide through his fingers. She was too aware of his faint touches, his knuckles just barely brushing her throat and ear and cheek. âNow why am I dangerous?â
âAll that fancy talking can turn a girlâs head mighty fast. Texas men are too good at it.â
âAnd Texas women are the prettiest women in the world,â he said softly, his gaze running over her features.
She laughed and set her wine on the table as she looked at him with amusement. His brows arched in question. âThat is high-fallutinâ talkinâ! Iâm too tall, too freckled and thereâs never been a time in my entire life that anyone told me what a beauty I am, so thatâs a stretch, Aaron.â
He didnât smile in return which made her heart miss a beat, but he gazed at her solemnly while he stroked his fingers through her hair. âMaybe I see something others havenât seen.â
âOh, heavens, can you lay it on thick!â
âJust telling the truth,â he drawled and smiled a lazy smile at her.
They were in dangerous waters and she glanced around, trying to get the conversation less personal. âIf no one lives here most of the time, who takes care of your house?â she asked, looking at the immaculate room.
âWe have a staff,â he answered casually without taking his eyes from hers. His fingers stroked her nape in featherlight brushes that ignited fires deep within her. His voice was low. The only light now was from the blazing fire, and there was a cozy intimacy that was made electric by his nearness. âWhy are you a teacher?â
âI love children,â she answered, and he nodded his approval. âI feel strongly that all children should be able to read, so I like working with them, particularly in reading. I never had any family. Maybe thatâs why I feel the way I do about kids. Why did you want to be a diplomat?â
âEverything about it fascinated me,â he said quietly, his green gaze studying her as if he were memorizing every feature. âI thought I could help save the world when I went into it.â
âAnd now?â
âNow I know thatâs an impossibility. The old world will keep turning no matter what I do. There will always be wars and intrigue, and now, more than ever, terrorism.â
âYou sound disenchanted.â
âNot tonight. Tonight is good,â he said, giving her a heated, direct look that blatantly conveyed his desire.
âBehave yourself, Aaron! You do come on strong.â
âYou wonât believe me, but I donât usually.â As she smiled, he touched her cheek. âDimples. You have to have been told your dimples are pretty.â
âMaybe so,â she said. âTell me about Spain.â
âIâll tell you, but soon I want to show it to you. Youâll have your weekends free when you get to Asterland and I can take you to my favorite places in Spain.â
Though she merely smiled at him, his words gave her a thrill. She listened to him describe Spain and Asterland, and she answered his questions about her job. Their conversation roamed over a myriad of subjects as if they had a million things to tell each other. And all the time they talked, his fingers drifted over her hands or nape or ear or played in her hair while he watched her as if she were the first woman he had ever seen.
âYour family has lived in Texas for more than a hundred years, havenât they?â she asked him. He nodded while his fingers stroked her nape and she barely could concentrate on what he was answering. While his index finger traced the curve of her ear, she inhaled deeply, tingles fueling her desire.
âYep. My great-granddaddy, Pappy Black, ran cattle when he came home after the War Between the States. He amassed the Black fortune. Then my granddad, Rainy BlackâIâm named for himâhe was Aaron Rainier Black, was a Texas senator, so I grew up around politicians. Iâm as Texas as you can get.â
âSure, Aaron,â she said, thinking of his eastern education. His fingers trailed from her ear down over her throat and along her arm, moving to her knee. His thickly lashed eyes were filled with desire and she tingled along every nerve ending from all his feather touches. âÂżHabla Español?â she asked.
âSĂŹ. ÂżY usted?â
âMuy poco. Only what Iâve picked up from living in Royal. What other languages do you speak?â
âFrench, German, Arabic, Italian, Polish and Chinese. My undergraduate degree is in languages and political science and I had to learn Arabic in the military. I had to learn Polish with the State Department.â
She thought again of the vast differences in their lives. âWhich colleges did you attend?â
âHarvard for an undergraduate degree,â he replied in an offhand manner. âNow tell me what you like to do? Whatâs fun?â
âPlaying with little children, reading. I enjoy doing pencil drawings. Just simple things. Iâve taught aerobics before, but not for the past year.â Her gaze dropped to his mouth, and she wondered what it would be like to kiss him. She wanted to kiss him. Why did he have this effect on her? She felt as if sparks constantly danced between them, and her awareness level was at a maximum. With an effort she tried to concentrate on what he was saying.
They sat and talked until a grandfather clock in the hall chimed three in the morning. It seemed she had been with him five minutes, yet it seemed as if she had known him all her life.
By three he had unfastened and removed his cuff links, turned back his white sleeves, kicked off his shoes. Her nerves were tingling and raw, and she was intensely aware of him, looking at his full lower lip and continuing to wonder what it would be like to kiss him.
When the clock softly chimed the third time, she stood. âWell, itâs getting late,â she said.
In a fluid movement, he came to his feet instantly and placed his hand on her waist, turning her to face him. One look in his eyes and her breath caught. He drew her closer.
âI feel like Iâve waited all my life for this moment,â he said softly.
Her heart thudded, and she told herself not to believe what he said, but the words thrilled her as his hand slid behind her head and his arm went around her waist, pulling her against his hard length. He leaned down, his mouth brushing hers and her pulse skipped with the first contact of his lips on hers. Fire and magic. Even more, before her lashes came down, was the look in his eyes of wanting herâas if his words had been the truth and he had been waiting forever.
What was it about this man that melted her physically and emotionally? That made all barriers go down and her body and heart both yield completely? He took her breath and made her pulse race and it seemed so incredibly right, as if she were destined for this night from the day she was born. He rubbed his lips softly against hers again.
âAaron,â she whispered his name, that from the first moment theyâd met had been special, irresistible.
His mouth settled on hers, opening it fully while his tongue thrust over hers, stroking it and conveying such need that she quivered in response. She wrapped her arms around his neck and returned his kisses and his passion. She felt his arousal and felt his hands slide over her and then move to her zipper. Cool air played across her shoulders as her dress fell away, and Aaron raised his head to push away the top of her lacy blue teddy. Inhaling deeply, he cupped her small breasts in his large, tanned hands. His breathing was ragged when he bent, and his tongue stroked her nipple.
âYouâre beautiful,â he whispered. âI need you.â
His words were as seductive as his kisses. Moaning with pleasure, she shook and gripped his shoulders and knew she should stop, but his every touch was magic. Sensations and desire bombarded her. Never in her life had she known passion. Never before had she found a man who ignited desire into blazing flames. She would stop him, but oh, not yet. Not yetâŠ
His thumbs circled and stroked her taut nipples and her insides turned a somersault. Her fingers went to the studs on his shirt, and in minutes she had worked them free and pushed away his shirt and then her hands were on his chest that was lean, hard-corded muscles. Her fingers tangled in the mat of short brown hair across his chest.
Swinging her into his arms while he kissed her, he carried her to a bedroom and then they were in bed together, her length stretched against his. As he peeled away the teddy and her hose, his hands and kisses were everywhere.
Was it the wine? The man? The magic of the night? His beguiling words that made her feel an incredible need in him for her alone?
A dim voice within her urged her usual caution, but it went up in smoke in minutes as he moved lower, trailing kisses to her thighs. His hand slipped between her legs, stroking her, driving her over a brink and making her want what she had never known, want it all with this man who was so special to her from the first moment she had looked into his eyes.
She helped him peel away his trousers and briefs. He moved over her, hard, ready, breathtakingly handsome as she wrapped her long legs around him and pulled him to her. She heard him whisper, asking if she was protected, and she answered yes, yes, wanting him with a desperate urgency in a manner she hadnât ever dreamed possible while desire demolished all her wisdom and caution.
His mouth covered hers, taking her cries of passion as he slowly entered her. When he raised his head and frowned, she arched her hips, tightened her legs, and pulled him to her.
âPlease, Aaron,â she whispered, knowing this night was more than magic for her and she wanted him as she had never wanted anything. She gave her virginity to him eagerly, wanting him and lost in the roaring of her pulse, only dimly hearing him cry out her name as she gasped, carried out of the world into pure ecstasy, finally tumbling over a brink of release.
In the quiet of the fading night he showered her with kisses, and then he held her tightly against him while they talked. His other hand caressed her, and his voice was a deep rumble that she loved to listen to.
âWhat do you like best in the world, Aaron?â she asked, wanting to discover everything about him she could.
âThis night. You in my arms. Long, slow hot kisses, people who care, Switzerland, the ranch. What do you like?â he asked in a lazy voice while he languidly drew his fingers over her hip.
âTonight, too. Being with you. Little children. Books.â She ran her finger along his jaw that had a faint trace of stubble now. âWhat do you want out of life?â
âAhh, thatâs an easier question. I want a family, a woman who is my best friend and lover. I want to do some good for people, to settle on the ranchââ
âYou want to live here on your ranch?â she asked, interrupting him and surprised by his answer.
âSure. I grew up on the ranch and love it. I want some more years in the diplomatic service, but then I want to come home to ranching. What do you want out of life?â he asked, gazing into her eyes while she caught his hand to kiss his knuckles lightly.
âI donât think about it much. I want to be a good teacher. I donât want any child to ever pass through my classroom and not be able to read when moving on. They should all learn in first and second grade and never go on until they master reading.â
âNo yearning for marriage?â
She was glad it was dark and he couldnât see her blush, because she could feel the heat rise in her cheeks. âYou know now, Aaron, that youâre the first man in my life. Iâve never dated much and never thought I would marry.â
âIâll bet the ranch you do.â
When she laughed, he touched her dimple. âAre you a gambling man?â
âActually no. But I donât think that would be much of a bet. Youâll marry, lady.â
âRight now, Iâm thinking about going to Asterland. Tell me some more about Europe.â
âAsterland is a beautiful little country. Youâre going to like it.â She listened to him talk for another twenty minutes and then while she was talking, she heard his deep, regular breathing and realized he was asleep. Hugging him, knowing she would carry memories of this night with her the rest of her life because she had fallen in love, she settled against him and closed her eyes.
She lay in his arms and listened to his heartbeat and his deep steady breathing. He held her tightly as if afraid of losing her. The wonder of the night left her dazed. Aaron was a marvel. Their lovemaking was ecstasy she had never expected to experience. Sheâd slept, then stirred as dawn spilled into the room, and along with it, reality.
Memories assailed her, and in the light of day, they held clarity and a shocked realization of how he must see the night.
How could she have fallen into his arms and given all to him the first night sheâd met him? She closed her eyes in pain, thinking of her mother and the taunting cries she had been teased with when she was youngâââŠyour momâs the town tramp,â âtrash mama,â âsheâs cheap,â âeasy layââeven worse names.
Shame, shock, fear of what Aaron would think of her, all ran through her mind. Was she that much like her mother after all? After all these years of being so circumspect, so careful, the moment a dashing, worldly man had turned his charm on her, she had thrown prudence over instantly.
Wiping at tears that stung her eyes, she slid out of bed. She could only imagine how Aaron must see her. Then her gaze fell on him and, momentarily, her feelings shifted and longing shook her. He was sprawled in bed, the sheet down below his narrow waist. His body was lean, muscled and looked like the body of a runner. The mat of dark brown hair across his chest tapered down in a line to his navel. Her gaze traveled lower to the sheet covering him, but her memories conjured up visions of Aaron last night when he was hard, ready and so incredibly male and appealing.
Giving a little shake of her shoulders, she knew she didnât want to see those probing green eyes open and look at her in a demeaning manner. Nor did she want to hear him make excuses or make light of an evening that had taken her heart. Again, she wondered how she could have succumbed so swiftly. Was it in her genes? She had fought that notion all her life, treating boys coldly, keeping barriers around her when she was older, barriers that turned guys off quickly.
As quietly as possible, with shaking hands and tears stinging her eyes, she gathered her things and dressed. Then she slipped downstairs and called Royalâs only cab.
In minutes she was standing on the drive, praying that Aaron wouldnât waken. Today she was supposed to go to Midland to see her closest friend, Jessica Atkins, a fellow teacher. Aaron probably couldnât find her if he wanted to. She suspected he wouldnât even care. Yet he hadnât seemed that way last night.
âOf course, he didnât, ninny!â she whispered to herself. âGet real. He seduced youâit was a one-night stand and you fell into his arms eagerly. Practically jumped into his arms.â
The cab whisked her away, and when the tall iron gates began to swing shut behind her she was certain she was closing a part of her life away. From this time forward, last night would only be a memory, yet she knew she had given Aaron much more than just her body.
Embarrassed and saddened, she had ridden home, packed for the weekend swiftly and rushed to her car to drive to Midland and the haven of Jessicaâs small frame house. No matter how many miles she put between them, she couldnât get Aaron out of her thoughts. The realization that they hadnât used any protection came to her. Aaron had asked if she was protected, and, totally lost to the moment, wanting him as she had never wanted anything in her life, she had whispered yes.
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âYou know better than that!â she said aloud to herself.
Realizing she was sitting in the Royal Diner, talking to herself, Pamela took a deep breath. Aaron had asked if she was protected. She couldnât blame him. And if he learned about her pregnancyâthat must never happen. She wouldnât even consider the possibilities.
She thought about the Blacks. Everyone in town knew that his parents had been into missionary work; his brother was a minister, channeling funds to worldwide missions, his older sister was a doctor in a third-world country. She didnât know what his other brother did, but they were good people and used their enormous wealth to help others. Aaron had told her how he had gone into the diplomatic service because he thought he could try to do something to help world situations.
She ran her fingers across her brow. Aaron Black must never know he was the father of her baby. He would be a man to marry out of a sense of duty and doing the right thing. AaronâŠ
Such a pang hit her she clutched her middle. Longing rolled up through her like a tidal wave. Along with her body, she had given her heart to him. She knew that. But she was realistic. She was a veteran of watching pillars of the community sleep with her mother, give Dolly tokens of appreciationâor much more than tokensâcars, jewelry, but always they eventually turned their backs on Dolly and went their own way. And out in public she had seen them meet her mother and seen the furtive glances, the coolness, the lack of respect they had treated Dolly with.
She couldnât bear that with Aaron. Aaron Blackâs baby. Again, she pressed her hand to her flat stomach and felt a surge of maternal joy. She already loved this baby with her whole heart and she would devote her life to her precious child.
She would have to move from Royal because there would be too much gossip here, but that was something she didnât have to worry about today. She just had to keep her condition a secret until her plans were made. It was a secret to be kept most of all from Aaron Black. He had already gone back to Europe, so there was little chance of his finding out unless Justin Webb or Matt Walker or another one of those buddies of Aaronâs learned about it and told him. And if he did find out, Matt was a good enough friend to respect her wishes. She could trust Matt to be the friend he always had been.
Once again the enormity of what she had done struck her. How could she have been so like her mother? How could she have thrown over all her caution when she had spent a lifetime being cautious? The man could charm the proverbial birds out of the trees, but that was no excuse. She had met charmers in college and had managed easily to say no. What was it about Aaron Black that twisted her into knots, melted her reserve, dissolved all barriers she kept up?
She clutched her middle again, aghast when she thought about how easy she had been, how careless, and what Aaron must think about her.
âAre you feeling better, Pamela?â
âIâm fine, thanks,â she said, aware of the waitress approaching the table. Sheilaâs pink uniform was bright and her gaze was sharp.
âWhat happened was scary. I guess youâll get over it as time goes by. Sorry you wonât get to go to Asterland to teach this semester. I heard the program was suspended.â
âThatâs right, but with my ankle hurt, I wasnât able to teach right after the crash,â Pamela said, wishing they could stop talking about it.
Sheila turned away, and Pamela stared at the giant burger and golden fries on her plate and knew she couldnât eat a bite. Nor could she leave the entire burger and fries without stirring up a storm of comments. She sipped some of the chocolate malt, ate two bites of the burger, and then she couldnât get down another morsel. She wrapped the burger and a few fries in her napkin and jammed them into her purse. Her purse would reek of hamburger, but she didnât want any gossip starting now. No one ordered one of Mannyâs juicy burgers and then left it with only a couple of bites taken out of it.
Thank heavens, so far, both she and Thad Delner led such straight and square lives that no one could conjure up gossip about them going together to the ball. And everyone in town knew he went to represent the school. Also, everyone in town was sorry about the loss of his wife, whom he had deeply loved. But once word got out that she had left the ball with Aaron Black, that would be another matter.
She slid out of the booth, paid and rushed from the diner before she had another conversation with anyone else. A few people were beginning to appear for lunch and she greeted them perfunctorily without even seeing who they were.
She drove home, her thoughts still churning, but an absolute determination growing within her that Aaron Black should never know about the baby. Their baby. She would call Jessica to tell her to watch for teaching jobs in Midland. The teaching position in Asterland was suspended this semester and by the next term, she would be very pregnant and she wouldnât want to go to Asterland even if it were possible. She wanted her baby born here in Texas where she had friends.
Midland was larger than Royal, far enough away that her life would be her own, yet close enough she could get back to see her friends in Royal when she wanted to.
At least she didnât have to worry about running into Aaron. He was halfway around the world and most likely had forgotten about her by now. She could imagine the kind of women in his life and wondered whether, while home in Texas, he had simply been amusing himself with the country girl that she was. In many ways Royal wasnât a typical small Texas town because of oil money and all the wealth it produced. Basically, though, Royal was a small West Texas town and she was pure country.
She turned onto her street and saw her two-story brick apartment complex. She drove through the open wooden barriers that never closed and turned down the row to the back of her tiny apartment and her carport. As she approached her carport, her heart thudded. Seated on the tailgate of a shiny black pickup was Aaron Black.
