The Secret Santa Project
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Carol Ross
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CHAPTER ONE
ON A GOOD DAY, texting was only slightly more tolerable than a visit to the dentist. So composing this particular message was more like a root canal without the Novocain. Cricket analyzed what he had so far.
Hey, can you give me a call when you have a minute? I’d like to chat.
No, that didn’t sound right. They weren’t besties meeting for lunch. Deleted chat. Added talk. Rearranged.
Any chance you could give me a call? I’d like to talk to you about something important.
Hmm. Talk might imply that he wanted to have a conversation. Like a heart-to-heart with sentences that included I feel or what I’m hearing you say is... Never a good thing, and definitely not the goal here. Especially with the way his last encounter with Hazel had gone. Even now, the memory of what had happened in Florida made his stomach churn with the hot acid of regret. That didn’t mean Cricket wanted to talk about it, though.
For reasons known only to his deceased mother, Lynette, Cricket had been dubbed Jiminy Malcolm Blackburn at birth. According to his father, Frank, she’d barely lived long enough to fill in the name on his birth certificate. He also maintained that they’d previously agreed on David Malcolm, but she’d changed it at the last second, and who was he to argue with a woman who’d just suffered through untold agony giving birth to his child? If Frank’s tale could even be believed. Cricket’s older brother, Lee, had been too young to remember any of these details.
Regardless, growing up with a famous cartoon insect as his namesake could have set the stage for a rough childhood. And likely would have if his surname hadn’t already ensured as much. Blackburn was a true badge of dishonor in the small town of Rankins, Alaska, where he’d grown up.
Years of staying out of trouble had managed to fade the stigma somewhat, but with a criminal con man for a father and a thief for a brother, it was always there. Lurking like a shark beneath the surface, waiting for the next opportunity to strike. And frequently, a story about yet another scam or theft or arrest would arise and unleash the gossip monster all over again. Cricket often imagined he could feel the less charitable townsfolk watching, waiting, wondering how far the apple had truly fallen from the tree.
A lifetime of weathering this fallout had made Cricket extremely cautious. He trusted very few people. It was a tricky balance trying to keep a low profile while fostering a positive reputation in a community this size. He’d learned at a very young age that words, once spoken, could never be taken back. Texting, in his opinion, was even worse than talking; phrases were misconstrued, statements spun. Every mistake or misstep indelibly recorded.
Bringing him back to his current dilemma. Hazel. He’d phoned her twice now, and she hadn’t answered or returned his calls. That probably told him all he needed to know. Likely she was still upset with him, which was fair. Although this was business, he reminded himself as he deleted the entire message and started over.
Call me. We need to talk.
That sounded like the precursor to a breakup.
He ground out a frustrated sigh. This was ridiculous. He shouldn’t be agonizing over a simple text to a woman he’d known her entire life. If it were any one of her three sisters, he wouldn’t even hesitate. The Jameses were like family to him. But that was the problem, wasn’t it? Hazel didn’t feel like family. And hadn’t for a very long time.
Ten years since “the incident” that still filled him with regret and from which he knew he’d never completely recover. He’d tried to move on. Over the years, he’d dated plenty of women, hoping someone would take her place. One unsuccessful attempt had followed another until, ultimately, he’d accepted his fate.
What had happened in Florida a few months ago only proved how little progress he’d made with Hazel. They’d argued. Yes, he’d started it, but he’d also apologized. Then, foolishly, he’d taken her in his arms, and before he knew it, a simple hug had turned...intense. He’d almost kissed her. Again. As if he needed the memory of another kiss, and the long-ago promise he’d broken, to keep him up at night. This time, at least, he’d resisted. Was he proud of how he’d walked away and left things? No. And undoubtedly, that was the source of her anger. Was she that upset, though? Enough not to return his calls?
Finally, he settled on a simple Call me. I need to talk to you.
With a final grumble, he hit Send, set the phone aside and turned his attention back to the computer monitor, where he didn’t see things getting better anytime soon. Not without help. Ideally, Hazel’s help.
The familiar stomp, stomp, stomp of boots shedding snow sounded on the front mat outside the entrance of the newly appointed office of Our Alaska Tours. He looked up to see Tag James come through the door, here to fetch him for their outing to Glacier City. Today was the first donation pickup on behalf of Operation Happy Christmas, a charity Tag’s mom, Margaret, had started and in which Cricket had played an integral part.
“Hey, buddy, you ready?” Tag asked.
“Yep. Rebekah said we could pick up the load anytime after three.”
“Sounds good.” Tag walked forward and leaned on the reception counter, behind which no one yet worked. Our Alaska Tours wasn’t officially open for business. They were slated to launch this spring, but unfortunately, they were behind schedule—the reason he needed to talk to Hazel.
Tag was Hazel’s oldest brother, and his oldest friend. His first friend, his best friend since first grade. He’d been the one to give him the nickname Cricket because Tag went by a nickname, too, and thought being called Cricket would be “supercool.” Beyond that, though, Tag had never cared about any of Cricket’s names, first or last, or what they implied. His pedigree, his poverty, none of that mattered to Tag. Or to the rest of the James family, for that matter.
That same often-hungry, without-prospects poverty might have prevented Cricket from participating in the everyday activities typical of a small-town Alaska childhood if it hadn’t been for Tag. His friend had handled this obstacle the same way he did almost everything in life: with generosity, discretion, casual efficiency—and extreme loyalty.
When it came time for a game of basketball, snow-machine ride, hike, fishing trip or whatever the boys had set their sights on, and Cricket didn’t have proper-fitting sneakers or a warm-enough coat or the right gear, Tag would give him something from his own closet. Or borrow something from his cousin Bering, or one of his sisters, and loan that to him. And when Cricket had been skirting the edge of the foster system, it had been Tag’s parents who’d taken him in.
Bering, who was also a close friend and Cricket’s business partner in the newly formed tour business, entered the office only seconds behind Tag.
Crossing his arms over his massive chest, he nodded toward the monitor and asked, “What do you think of Hazel’s suggestions?”
Cricket considered the two men standing before him and wondered, as he often did, where he’d be if it weren’t for the James family. No place good, that was for sure, if he were to base the probabilities on his own family’s history. Instead, with hard work and the encouragement of Tag and his parents, Margaret and Ben, he’d become an airplane pilot. And then a helicopter pilot and finally a business owner.
Tag’s sister Hannah was his partner in JB Heli-Ski, a backcountry adventure ski company for which Cricket also piloted. After Tag, she was his closest friend. The rest of the year, Cricket flew clients into the backcountry for Bering’s other business, a guide and outfitter service, and for Tag’s air transport company, Copper Crossing, which flew just about anything anywhere it needed to go.
This new partnership between him and Bering, while taking him in a different direction, felt like a natural evolution. The formation of Our Alaska Tours was also one more tie binding him to the James family. And one more reason to keep his distance from Hazel, the James woman who could unravel it all.
Keeping a literal distance usually wasn’t too difficult. Her life as a travel writer and blogger meant that typically, thousands of miles separated them. Ironically, it was her expertise in that field now forcing this point of contact.
And this latest bout of Hazel anxiety must, as always, remain his secret and was not the aim of Bering’s question, which he now addressed with a wryly delivered, “Ghost tours? I didn’t even know we had ghosts in Alaska.”
Tag laughed.
A smiling Bering said, “Emily says these tours are very popular everywhere right now.” Emily was Bering’s wife and director of Rankins’s tourism bureau. She’d been filling them in on popular tourist draws. “And you have to admit, it’s interesting. You guys know Kerry Cottons, right? He says Gold Bend’s history is spooky that way. Maybe we could tack on a day to the coastal tour—for the mining history, not the ghosts.” Kerry was a fellow pilot who lived near the historic old mining town a short boat ride away from Juneau.
“We know him,” Cricket said. “Great guy. Honestly, Hazel’s entire proposal is full of interesting ideas.” Mostly. Some of them seemed a little out-there, but Bering had asked her for any and all suggestions, and she’d delivered.
“I agree. What do you think about her recommendation to hire someone?”
“Why don’t you just hire her?” Tag joked. “I’d love for my sister to quit wandering around the world all alone and come home for good.”
“We’d all love that,” Bering concurred.
Would we? Cricket silently pondered. He could barely handle being in the same room with her without giving himself away. How would he manage to live in the same town? Then again, Tag had a point, too; at least they’d know she was safe.
He had to admit that Bering’s idea to seek her advice about their tours had been a good one. He could see now that they should have done it months ago. Technically, they’d planned to in Florida, but then there’d been the argument followed by a crisis involving her brother Seth, and the opportunity had been lost.
Nevertheless, the clock was now ticking to get their tours finalized in advance of the travel season. Cricket felt responsible for the delay. Partly, anyway. There’d been plenty of other obstacles they could never have foreseen. All of them heightening his anxiety as money and time had been invested, commitments and promises made. He needed to fix this, get them back on track.
Expression turning thoughtful, Bering asked Tag, “Do you think that’s possible? That she’d want a job?”
“No.” Tag sighed. “It’ll never happen. Traveling is her life. I don’t think we’ll ever get her back here for good.”
Cricket tried to decide if Tag’s declaration caused him more disappointment or relief. He said, “I texted her, asking if she had time to discuss some of this stuff.” Or, at least, that was what he planned to ask her when she called him back.
“Great,” Bering said. “Maybe we can set up a video call.”
Cricket agreed. Until then, they had a load of Christmas donations to fetch.
Pushing to his feet, he looked at Tag and said, “Let’s hit the road.”
“SO... NO FACEBOOK, Twitter, Snapchat, LinkedIn, Instagram, TikTok, Marco Polo, or any social media or photo-sharing platform out there that we may or may not have heard of.”
Hazel James nodded along while her private guide, Kai Montauk, outlined the rules for touring Montauk Caves, the limestone caverns named for his grandfather.
Piercing dark brown eyes snagged hers and held on tight as he added, “No photos whatsoever.” Like she was a naughty middle schooler trying to sneak her phone into class.
“I understand,” she politely responded, while desperately wanting to joke, Principal Montauk, sir.
“I’ll also reiterate that your Instagram story cannot include photos or video of the caves, or of me, or you, or Buster, or anything or anyone else that you see once we step through that gate.”
Even with the borderline hostility, he was a nice-looking guy. Midtwenties, she estimated, with a chiseled jawline, strong chin and black shoulder-length hair tucked behind his ears. She suspected a set of dimples would slash his cheeks if she could ever bring him to a smile.
He was pointing toward the trail, where a security fence stretched as far as she could see in both directions, an endless parade of shiny black metal spears protruding menacingly from the ground and intersecting at a tall gate. The way he’d drawn out the word video was enough for her to infer that some genius of the self-proclaimed variety had likely capitalized on the distinction between a still and moving picture by posting a “video” on their social media “story.”
“Got it,” she stated a bit more firmly. “I won’t be taking or posting any photos or videos.”
Kai’s squinty-eyed skepticism was a match to his dubious tone. “I thought my brother said you were a travel blogger.”
Ah. Of course. This was the reason for his borderline hostility. Understandable. Franco had told her about how, several months ago, after seeing a post from a popular “social media influencer” about the “#secretcaves,” a group of teens had broken in. They’d carved their initials next to sacred Native hieroglyphs and destroyed some precious and irreplaceable stalactites and helictites.
As if that weren’t bad enough, they’d rappelled down to the bottom of the largest shaft, where one of the kids had broken his ankle. Then they’d taken photos and posted them all over Instagram, accusing the Montauk family of “allowing” unsafe conditions, and #deadlycaves had trended. A lawsuit was filed. More graffiti and vandalism followed, prompting the family to close the property to the public and adopt these extreme security measures.
Such desperate actions were becoming more common as travel increased across the globe. All it took were a few rude or destructive individuals to ruin it for everyone. The number of locations where you were no longer permitted to take photos or video was rapidly growing, too. Sites where it had never been allowed were cracking down. Even as a professional traveler who took great pains to advocate for “travel respect” and responsibility, Hazel understood and felt torn about her role in it all.
“What else did Franco tell you about me?”
“Not much,” he said. “I haven’t spoken to my brother in days. With the time difference and our busy schedules, we keep missing each other. He emailed, asking me to show you around, and here we are.”
Not overly thrilled about it either, she couldn’t help but note. Suppressing a sigh, she conjured a smile. “I am a travel writer and blogger. But today, I am just Hazel, a friend of Franco’s and a fellow cave enthusiast, taking him up on an invitation to visit his family’s caves. No agenda. No assignment. A free day just for me. Believe it or not, I like to keep certain experiences to myself.” Lately, she’d been feeling that inclination more and more. Maybe she needed a break.
A few months ago, an unfair and devastating social media attack had been unleashed on her brother Seth’s girlfriend, Victoria. They’d been in Florida competing for the same professional spokesperson job when Victoria had become the victim of a vicious smear campaign. The incident had nearly derailed Victoria’s career and her relationship with Seth.
Hazel had played a small part in rectifying the injustice, but the episode had left her disheartened and disappointed and launched an unprecedented bout of soul-searching. Or it had contributed, anyway. The questioning, the disquiet, ran deeper than that.
So much deeper.
All the way down to the black hole of her life called Cricket Blackburn, with whom she’d had a different, more personal altercation with while in Florida. Even now, the memory made her face flush hotly with mortification. They’d been arguing, and then they weren’t. Apologies were exchanged and then a hug coalesced into a moment, and she was sure that he returned her attraction. But she was wrong, and the memory of what he’d said next and the vision of him walking away was almost physically painful.
“So, you just want to look at our caves?”
The question pulled her back into the moment. Where she belonged. Where she wanted to be. After all, that was what her life was all about—living in the moment. For the last ten years, she’d devoted herself to doing just that. Because when she lived in the moment, she did not waste time daydreaming about an impossible future or agonizing about the past. It was just that, lately, she’d been finding the execution of this philosophy more and more problematic. Was she having some sort of early-onset midlife crisis? An early-life crisis—was that a thing?
“No,” she answered. “I want to experience your caves, to hear them, to smell them and, yes, to see them. You are welcome to hold on to my phone if that makes you more comfortable.” Digging into her daypack, she then removed her cell only to see two missed calls from... No, it couldn’t be. She squinted at the screen. Cricket. Before she could stop it, her insides erupted in this fluttery happy dance. The same sensation used to fill her with hope and anticipation and leave her reeling with dreamy-eyed fantasies. Now it made her feel foolish and immature. And maybe a little angry.
Ugh. She needed to get over this. What she needed was to get over him, once and for all. If she could only figure out how to do that.
There was a text, too, which gave her pause. Until she read, Call me. I need to talk to you.
That’s it? “You’ve got to be kidding me,” she muttered, irritation pulsing through her. She knew he hated texting, but he could do better than that. How about a please or maybe even an I’m sorry? “Too little, too late,” she concluded.
He’d made it perfectly clear that he didn’t want to discuss what had happened or make any effort to resolve anything, so why should she talk to him now? She looked back down at the phone and quickly counted. Eight words. That was what he could spare for her?
Looking up, she noted Kai’s curious expression. His features had softened, dimples twitching as if toying with a smile.
“You okay?” he asked. “Did you get some bad news?”
“Yeah, no, I’m fine.”
“If you need to make a call or send a text, I understand. The reception here is not great, but if you head back toward the parking area, you’ll probably have better luck.”
“Nope. Do not need to do that.”
Pausing for a moment, he shuffled his weight and then heaved out a sigh. “Sorry if I sounded like kind of a jerk before. I’m just frustrated. Ever since the vandalism and the lawsuit.”
“Don’t sweat it.” Hazel added a sincere smile. “I understand. Franco told me what happened.”
“Thanks,” he said simply, sincerely. They walked to the gate, where the trail led toward the stunning red rock canyon beyond. He lifted a little door to reveal a keypad and deftly tapped a sequence of buttons. The lock opened with a crisp click. He pushed the gate forward and waved her through.
On the other side, she waited while he secured the gate behind them. Something occurred to her then. “Can I ask you a question?”
“Sure.”
“Who is Buster?”
He turned to face her, and she felt validated as those dimples officially made their first appearance. They were every bit as cute as she’d anticipated.
“You’ll see.”
“You promise?”
“You’re not going to take photos, are you?” he asked, but she could tell he was teasing.
“No,” she joked. “Just some video.”
He laughed. “In his email, Franco said you were cool and funny.”
“Well, Franco would know—he is also cool and funny.”
That induced another grin, and Hazel decided Kai might not be as unpleasant as she’d first feared.
“He also said you were here in Utah working. Can I ask what brought you here, if not our caves?”
“I...” She started to explain, to tell him about the resort story, but that was when she realized she still held her phone in her hand. Like a lightning bolt, another idea occurred to her, a freelance article she could also write. She loved it when that happened.
“You know what? I am going to send one quick text...” She typed out a message for Iris and Seth, letting her triplet siblings know she’d be out of touch for a couple of days. She could easily work on both stories at the same time.
She then made a show of powering the phone off and shoving it to the bottom of her pack. The very bottom. Ha. Take that, Cricket Blackburn! Now I won’t go all dreamy-eyed when I see that your stupid face has called. Maybe you’ll even get a taste of how I feel when you won’t talk to me.
“My current assignment is about resorts.” Then she said the other story concept out loud, reinforcing the idea and liking it even more: “I’m also working on an article about how to enjoy traveling without being connected.”
