S. S. Sahoo
Ethan
I wonder what Amelia’s doing right now.
I frowned at my class roster. I had a thousand different things to do, even this early in the semester, and the authorities-that-be at Columbia University were unlikely to be impressed if I took my eyes off the ball.
It’s just that I couldn’t stop thinking about her. I should probably see a therapist about that.
I moved on to my next task, an overview of my approved curricula, wincing at the irony of it all.
Imagine being in a profession that requires a well-adjusted mind and then entirely losing one’s head about a woman.
I needed help, and I knew it.
As a matter of fact, a past client of mine in London had asked me that same question once.
“Look ’ere, Doc,” he’d said to me, his irrepressible smile breaking through the tough Scottish exterior. “Don’t you ever see a shrink of your own? I mean, with all the things people ’ud tell you, stands to reason you’d need it, eh?”
I shook my head, politely smiling. “I’m not allowed to tell you that, Brian,” I replied, “but I can tell you that everyone needs a check-up for their mind every once in a while.”
“Oh, aye.” He leaned back in the brown leather armchair I provided for my clients, chewing at his perennial gum, and winked.
“Aye, I imagine you do see a shrink. And that shrink sees a shrink, and that ’un has another ’un. Where does it all end, I ask myself. Strange kind of world we live in.”
He lost himself in the infinite therapy pyramid in his imagination. I looked at him over my fingertips, waiting for him to come back.
“Aye,” he said finally. “Enough to drive anyone mad.”
That was one of my favorite things about my job. However much I saw broken people, there were always those with odd flashes of insight, philosophy, a sense of reaching for more.
Exactly as I was doing now.
So maybe, I was being a little unfair to Amelia. I leaned back in my basic wooden chair, designed for discomfort to keep the staff on their toes, presumably, and thought about that.
Because who was I to expect anything from her? Yes, she used to be an extremely intelligent student—once.
But just because I grew up dirt poor, had been forced to make the most of my skill set to survive, did not mean she was operating under the same imperatives. On the contrary, I was only reminded of mine.
I checked the time. Only a few hours across the Atlantic, my grandma Deirdre would be waking up from her afternoon nap right about now.
It was time. I called home.
“Hello?” fluted a high voice. “Ethan, papi, is that you?”
Who else, I wanted to say, but of course, I did not.
“Hi, Mrs. Gonzalez,” I said instead. “Is my abuela awake yet?”
“Of course! Do you want to talk to her, mi amor?”
No, I called her house to talk to you. What do you think, woman?
“I’d love that,” I replied carefully. “Is she well?”
The older woman’s voice dropped to a lower pitch, full of regret. For all her faults, she had a kind heart.
“Well, you know how it is,” she said sadly. “She has good days and bad days. Sometimes, I can’t even tell which one.”
And then, she was gone, yelling for my grandmother.
“Mrs. Martinez, it’s your grandson! You know, Ethan?”
A bit of aggravated mumbling from further off, and then, a sharp voice came on the line.
“Who is this?” she asked suspiciously. Despite myself, my mouth turned down.
“It’s Ethan, Gran,” I said quietly. She scoffed.
“Lies! I’ve never heard that name in my life.”
“Yes, you have,” I said. “You were there when I was born. You wanted to call me Esteban, but Dad said I had to be baptized in the Anglican Church, so he went with the English name instead.”
There was a long pause.
“Are you sure?” she said finally. “I know I’m forgetful sometimes, but this is a lot to forget, lad.”
“I’m sure,” I said, fighting back tears. “You’re not forgetful, Gran. You have Alzheimer’s. It’s a condition, not a flaw.”
“I see,” she said tightly. “Forgot about that too, did I?”
And now, I had to smile, even through eyes brimming with tears. “Yeah. Don’t worry about it, though. I love you just the same. In fact, more.”
“You do?” Don’t sound so uncertain, Gran. It breaks my heart.
“I do,” I said firmly, wiping away a stray tear. “If you remembered half the trouble I’ve gotten into, we’d be having a much angrier conversation right now, I promise you.”
“Per’aps,” she mumbled. “Why are you in New York?”
“New job,” I told her, just like the last hundred times. “More money. You said I shouldn’t stay at home just ’cos you had to. As a matter of fact, you told me not to be a ninny and just take the bloody job.”
“Sounds like me, right enough,” she said briskly. “Well, I’m glad you’re doing well for yourself. Visit when you can. Goodbye.”
The phone went dead with a decisive ping.
“Goodbye, Gran. I love you,” I murmured to the blank screen. “I don’t care that you forgot how to say that, too.”
My work lay untouched in front of me. I hate New York, and I hate this job. I just want to go home, Gran.
As if in response, my phone lit up.
It was my old friend Joaquin, asking if I wanted to go to a NASCAR rally upstate.
Well. I probably needed the distraction.
I texted him back.
Amelia
White sunlight filtered through the soft curtains of my bedroom window as I stretched my limbs.
I’d been dreaming once more, and, as usual, each dream was a memory of a time I’d spent with Mom.
There were days I missed her so much that it was all I could do to not book the next flight and go raid her hospital, if only to bring her home.
Maybe, it had something to do with how she always fueled my fire. When I was ten years old, she assigned me the duty of making breakfast toast for everyone.
I took it on with the confidence of a nubile child and burned the bread to crisps. No one could bite into it, save her. She managed one nibble and burst out laughing.
“Did you have something in mind when you were making this, darling?” she’d asked me, comic seriousness on her features.
“I—” I’d lipsed. “I wanted to make you all healthy. No calories in this toast!”
Everyone in the room had laughed out loud. Even at that age, I was years ahead, coming up with ridiculous ideas, that if you thought about it, did come from some sensible origin.
The papers of the morning lay scattered on my bedside table. I sighed and reached out for one, only to push it away after reading the headlines. The media had been having a field day with me.
It began with t-shirts and memes, each embedded with a picture of Teddy and me. And I liked that.
What I didn’t appreciate was the endless jibes, each one more telling than the last.
Tiger Princess must win at racing too!
Amelia does something brash yet again!
Knights Corp Heiress Is as Immature as They Come!
It was as if these people lived off of humiliating those born to greater fortune, by whatever whimsical means. And I wasn’t one to go hiding because of what they felt. That shit was on them.
In fact, I’d have passed the papers off altogether if I didn’t happen upon something that made my blood boil and then run cold.
“Ace Knight’s very own Veronica labels Amelia Knight, his sister, a ditzy blonde with no substance!”
I scanned the headline once more. It was a prominent paper too. And, worst of all, it showed a picture of me hugging Darius, my hips suggestively leaning into him.
Why the fuck would Veronica do this to me? What was she thinking?
And, most of all, the only thing this made me want to do was anger her further.
She was messing with the wrong Knight.
My phone blared a message from Darius.
“I’ll be racing at The Glen tomorrow. I’d love it if you could be my plus-one!”
Of course I’d be there, but I’d do it on my own terms.
I got up from bed and headed into the kitchen, stopping to pour myself a mug of coffee. A sip of life-giving substance later, I had my reply for him.
“Thank you so much, darling. I have some work to take care of in the morning, but I’ll come there as soon as I finish!”
There was a lull. A second of silence. Then, the phone chimed once more.
“Great, see you then, sweet pea!”