
Goddess Isles Book 4: Fourth a Lie
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Chapter One
Book Four: Fourth a Lie
Sullivan
âEVERYTHING YOU LOVE DIES, Sinclair. Everything you treasure is gone. Thatâs your true curse. The one you can never run from.â
I pinched the bridge of my nose, doing my best to squeeze out the voice of my nightmare. The nightmare Iâd had just before the bomb destroying Serigala ripped me awake.
Iâd hoped the warning was some version of closure from my distrusting brain, throwing the masks of my past in my face, freeing me from lies and deceptions.
A strange kind of acceptance that I was in love, that Iâd felt joy, that Iâd been happy mere hours before this shitstorm came knocking.
But I was wrong.
Itâd been the opposite.
I couldnât shed those masks because they were a part of me. They were my armour against a world I could no longer survive in. They were my tools to reap death and decay on those who deserved it.
Those masks were the walls between Eleanor and our forever, condemning me with the truth that I was fucking delusional to think I could keep her, suicidal to give my heart to her, and utterly demented to think I could claim hers in return.
Iâd done this.
Iâd fallen for her and fallen from my power.
Iâd adopted, rehabilitated, and nursed so many innocent creatures, and now they were chum in the sea, mangled paws and broken tails, missing ears and blown apart skulls.
Iâd made a promise to keep them safe.
Safe?
Christ, my safety came with extermination.
Nothing was safe around me.
Nothing.
Especially not her.
Three hours.
He gave me three hours to save her.
My disgusting, gore-painted hands curled into fists as I leaned back and bashed my head against the plush helicopter upholstery.
Eleanor.
It didnât matter if I had three hours or three years, it was all the sameâjust a matter of time before I hurt her.
If I keep herâŠsheâll die.
It was inevitable.
Inescapable.
My nightmare wasnât closureâit was a forewarning.
An omen filled with premonition and intuition that no matter how much time passed, no matter how hard I tried to find redemption, I hadnât been forgiven by fate.
I hadnât earned her.
Iâd never earn her because Iâd never fucking change.
I liked my life. I hoarded my privacy. I enjoyed playing with myths and falsities.
I was just as bad as the guests who visited.
I was owed no singular forgiveness for what I was. I wasnât any worse or better than my brethren.
My one saving grace was I preferred the animal kingdom over my own and tried to buy better karma through their protection.
And I kept failing fucking spectacularly at it.
Humans were the disease. Animals were the pharmacon.
Eleanor was human.
I was human.
Drake was human.
And because Drake was a psychotic bastard, and I was a love-struck fool, and Eleanor was a girl trapped by me, we all had blood on our hands.
We were all responsible for this animal carnage because Eleanor had distracted me from my calling, Drake had found my weakness, and IâŠ
Iâd been too busy being fucking happy to notice.
Fuck!
Groaning with fresh nausea, I glowered out the helicopter window.
Down below with black-shrouded oceans and star-dusted shores, life went on, things got eaten, new life was birthed, and a goddess existed whoâd almost convinced me of the impossible.
The impossibility of us.
I bent forward again, digging hands through my hair, not caring that I spread viscera and biohazard, contaminating every part of me. Yesterday, Iâd been making sarcastic quips to Jinx in Nirvana.
Iâd felt joy. Iâd laughed. Iâd indulged.
Iâd forgotten about everyone and everything.
Iâd allowed the very thing that I despised about the human race to intoxicate me.
Iâd become selfish.
Iâd become greedy and narcissisticâonly thinking of my life, my lust, my love.
Iâd given in to every dream and fantasy I had, thinking I could finally have peace.
And nowâŠ
I snarled in the din of helicopter blades.
Fury tangled with loss, despair blended with violence, and every wall Iâd dropped, every mask Iâd shed, every denial Iâd erased stabbed me with a thousand blades.
Eleanor.
Sheâd done this. Sheâd made me become this.
ThisâŠman. This blind, stupid man whoâd forgotten his responsibilities and commitments. I was wrong to think her hex on me was purely about us.
It wasnât.
It was about my life. My future. My animals whoâd died because Iâd fallen in love.
And that...? Fuck, that was a price I wasnât prepared to pay.
Not again.
An avalanche of hate slithered over my shoulders, chilling me. My bones froze over, cracking with frost and filling with loathing for Drake. For me. Even for Eleanor.
Sheâd made me love her.
She made every drop of my frosted blood panic for her safety.
She came first.
Over everything.
She meant more.
Over anything.
And look what fucking happened.
Those animals would still be alive if it wasnât for me.
Drake needed to die.
Slowly.
Painfully.
Piece by piece.
That was a stone-chiseled certaintyâbut the rest?
The rest of my fuck-ups and failings? The fact that my heart belonged to a woman who had made me weak?
The goddamn truth that Iâd fallen for a goddess whoâd shaken apart my dynasty and left my borders wide open for attack?
How did I fix that?
How do I stop the undeniable urge to sacrifice everything if it means I can keep her safe?
Dropping my hands, I sat tall again. I was a fidgety, violent mess trapped in a tiny cabin, rapidly losing control, quickly fraying with the sickening desire to murder.
Cal sat quietly beside me, knowing not to interrupt.
Heâd seen me on this knife-edge. Heâd seen me this restless before. Heâd felt whatâd happened when I snapped and watched what Iâd done when I broke.
Iâd left a trail of corpses in my wake for payment for ten animal lives. A mix of mouse, monkey, and rabbit from a cosmetic group in Chicago.
Iâd made national news for the disgustingly gruesome and frankly morbidly-inspired retribution Iâd delivered.
Iâd been arrested.
Iâd been trialled.
Iâd been released because I had something that they didnât.
Money.
Lots and lots of fucking money and with money came untouchability.
But not this time.
Instead of coming after me, Drake had gone after my most vulnerable.
Bullshit.
Motherfucking bullshit!
I punched the fuselage in an explosive strike.
Cal flinched beside me, his voice piercing my ears via our headsets. âJust to distract you from your chaotic thoughts, Iâve called ahead. The guards have set the snares. Theyâre armed.
âThey know their position and protocol. Sheâll be fine, Sully.â
I snarled in his direction. âWhat makes you think Iâm worried about her?â
He snorted. âIf you could sprout wings right now, youâd be down there with her already.â
âIâd be looking for Drake.â
âWell, whatever your first priority, sheâll be fineââ
âShe wonât fucking be fine. Not while sheâs mine.â
He shrugged as if this was a fucking shrugging matter.
âEveryone has family theyâd rather keep hidden.â His lips twitched, delivering the twisted joke, hoping itâd shatter my rage but only adding to it.
I was not in the mood to let go of the shit Iâd seen.
I was not going to be pacified just because I had men on my payroll who knew their jobs and were proven in merciless warfare.
The things inside me?
The fact that I would die for her? The knowledge that I would turn into anything, sacrifice anything, destroy everything for herâŠit made me a highly dangerous individual.
It made me volatile.
It made me unpredictableâŠeven to myself.
She canât be near me.
âI want her gone.â I glowered out the window as we began our descent. âNow.â
His voice crackled, offering solutions to my fury. âWeâll arrange for the goddesses to be sent to Lebah. Theyâll be close by and safe while we deal with Drake.â
âThere is no we.â My knuckles cracked as I fisted my hands. âHis pain belongs to me and every fucking creature heâs just snuffed out.â
âFine.â Cal nodded curtly, his reflection bouncing off the window. âIâll evacuate the guests too. They can go to Angsa. The fortified encampment there will keep them out of harmâs way for a day or so.
âWeâll ensure those who want to go home have transport available.â
Two islands named after creatures with wings. One with feathers and one with membrane. A swan and a bee. Both far too delicate and defenceless.
My goddesses and guests could go there.
Frankly, I was done with humans for the time being. They could be casualties in this war; I didnât fucking care.
But EleanorâŠshe wasnât going with them.
Sheâd done this to me. Sheâd stripped me down to my final mask and shown me how lacking I was.
I was a man whoâd turned off his empathy toward his own race, only to cripple beneath the swarm of it for fragile animals.
Iâd once told her that too much empathy could kill a person and not enough would kill someone else.
Well... my empathy had become a double-sided weapon, and I didnât want to be responsible when I wielded it.
Therefore, all my promises, ill-fated joy, and unbearable pleasure were over.
âTell the pilots they have a flight to Java in one hour.â
Cal stiffened beside me. âYouâre sending her to the mainland?â
I tensed, doing my best to stop my heart from leaping from my mouth. âSheâs going home. Iâm done.â
His silence was as damning as his sarcastic âsirâ.
My goddess island came into view, the helicopter sank, and I gathered up all the masks that Eleanor had stripped from me with bloody, gory hands, and put them back on... one lie at a time.








































