The Agent's Secret Baby
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Marie Ferrarella
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Eve is pregnant with your baby. The anonymous tip leads undercover DEA agent Adam Serrano back to his lost love, Eve Walters. The gorgeous veterinarian had stormed out of his life upon discovering the "truth" about his identity. Though it nearly killed him, disappearing had ensured her safety. Now he's a father and must see for himself that Eve is okay. Renewed desire fuses them together despite all common sense. Then Eve and their baby become targets in his dangerous world. To survive, he must regain her trust. In the end, he needs to choose between family and duty, life and death.
Chapter 1
It took her a second to realize that the sigh she heard echoing in the small, converted bedroom that served as her office was her own.
Lost in thoughts of the past and preoccupied, Dr. Eve Walters had thought that the deep sigh had come from Tessa, the German shepherd sheâd rescued from a sadistic owner a little more than two years ago. On occasion Tessa, currently curled up under her desk, was given to sighing just like a human being. Considering the life sheâd led both B.R.âbefore rescueâand A.R.âafter rescueâthe sighs were more than merited. Before, Eve was certain, the dogâs sighs had been of the fearful, hopeless variety while now, with Tessaâs weight a third more than what it had been when sheâd first been rescued, the German shepherdâs sighs sounded as if she was exceedingly content with her new life and just couldnât believe her good fortune.
Lately, Eve had become aware of sighing a great deal herself, as if she couldnât catch her breath. And couldnât believe the twists and turns that had brought her to this point.
She supposed she could just shrug her shoulders and attribute her deeps sighs to the fact that she wasnât accustomed to carrying around this much weight, but if she were being honest, the cause for her sighs went a great deal deeper. Never in her wildest dreams did Eve think she would find herself in this position: approaching thirty in a few months, single, alone and very, very pregnant.
Tears suddenly gathered in her eyes and she held them back by sheer will. God, but she was emotional lately. Well, she was not going to cry. She wasnât.
Another sigh escaped.
How in heavenâs name had she come to this state?
Okay, she was gregarious and fun-loving, but never, ever would anyone have called her reckless. She was always known as the stable one, the one everyone else turned to in times of crisis.
When her mother, Evelyn, had died suddenly on Eveâs second day of middle school, Eve was the one who was there for her veterinarian father, Warren, and her older sister, Angelaânot the other way around. This while she secretly yearned for someone to comfort her. But she couldnât indulge herself, couldnât sink into self-pity no matter how much she wanted to. Others depended on her. And she always came through.
Beneath her genial, warm smile she was the living embodiment of the old adage, âLook before you leap.â Not only did she look, she would take out a surveyorâs level and plot every single step from there to here each and every time. It wasnât that she didnât like surprises; she just didnât like being caught unaware. And it certainly wasnât like her to give in to impulse and allow herself to be so completely swept away, especially by a man sheâd hardly known.
A man she didnât know at all, Eve thought bitterly.
Eve blew out a breath and dragged a hand through the flowing mane of wayward dark blond hair. She stared at the computer screen on her laptop, silently seeking answers she knew werenât about to materialize. Barring that, she needed a distraction.
My kingdom for a distraction, she thought whimsically.
After shutting down the animal hospital for the night, the animal hospital that had once borne only her fatherâs nameplate across the front door and where she had grown up, surrounded by animals in need of care and a kind, gentle father, Eve had gone home and retreated to her inner office. Sheâd turned on her computer to do a little research into the condition of the near-blinded dachshund that had been brought in today, searching for a possible way to reverse, or at least halt the condition. Searching, she supposed, for a miracle.
How sheâd gotten to a chat room for expectant single moms was almost as mysterious to her as how sheâd gotten in this condition in the first place.
Actually more so, she mused.
Of course she knew all about the mechanics of becoming pregnant, but it was how and why sheâd gotten to that point that utterly mystified her. In hindsight, it just didnât seem possible.
She knew exactly what she wanted to do with her life, had known ever since she could remember. At least sheâd known professionally. She was exactly what she wanted to be: a veterinarian, caring for a host of dogs and cats just the way her father had.
What she wanted for her private life was another matter. Oh, she knew that she wanted to go the traditional route. Wanted a husband and a family. Eventually.
She would have sworn that she hadnât wanted to reverse that order, but apparently she had no choice in the matter now.
Unless, as her sister in Sacramento had urged, she give up the baby.
There was no way Eve wanted to do that. Not because she viewed the little passenger she was carrying around as a love child, the living testimony of the passion that had existed between her and Adam. No, that didnât enter into it at all. The baby, whose due date Eveâs ob-gyn had calculated was still a long two weeks away, was an extension of her, a little person whom for reasons that were beyond her, God had seen fit to entrust to her.
She was even looking forward to holding the baby in her arms. But she wasnât looking forward to dealing with being alone at a time when the babyâs fatherâs emotional support would have meant so much.
The latter was her own fault, she supposed.
No one had told her to pick up in the middle of the night and flee from Santa Barbara, secretly running back home to Laguna Beach.
âBut how couldnât I?â she said aloud.
Tessa, dead to the world only a heartbeat ago, raised her head and looked at Eve with deep brown eyes. The next second, seeing that there was no emergency, Tessa went back to sleep.
Leaning over, Eve ran her hand over the dogâs head, struggled to bank down her agitation. Petting her dog usually helped calm her.
But not tonight.
Tonight, the agitation refused to leave, refused to budge.
Maybe it was because tonight was Halloween, she thought. Maybe that was why she couldnât seem to shake the feeling that someone was watching her.
She sighed again.
Adam Smythe had been almost stereotypically handsome, not to mention the last word in âsexy.â Added to that he was charming and he had taken her breath away from the very first moment sheâd walked into his rare, first-editions bookstore. The moment he had looked her way, sheâd felt as if an arrow had been shot straight into her heart.
At the time sheâd been looking for a special birthday present for her father. Warren Walters loved everything that had ever come from Mark Twainâs pen. What sheâd wound up getting, along with a fairly well-preserved first edition of A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthurâs Court, was a prepackaged heartache.
Oh, Adam hadnât looked like a heartache at first or even at tenth glance. He looked like a drop-dead gorgeous specimen of manhood who, given that this was California, she wouldnât have been surprised if the tall, dark-haired, green-eyed man had said he was just running the bookstore until that big acting break came that would propel him into being the countryâs next great heartthrob.
To add to this image, Adam was soft-spoken, slightly reserved, and he exuded such a powerful aura of authority that heâd instantly made her feel safe.
Eve laughed now, shaking her head at her incredible naiveté.
Talk about getting the wrong signal.
There had been nothing safe about Adam. He made her lose control in a heartbeat. Some of the boys in high school, and then college, she recalled, had referred to her as the Ice Princess.
âI certainly melted fast enough with him,â she told her faithful, sleeping companion. Tessa didnât even stir this time.
One dinner.
One dinner had been all it had taken and she was ready to completely surrender her self-imposed code of ethics and abandon the way sheâd behaved for her entire adult life without so much as a backward glance. When Adam had leaned over to brush back a loose strand of hair from her cheek, she turned into a furnace. Raging heat flashed through her limbs. Through her entire body.
And then heâd kissed her.
God, when Adam kissed her, sheâd felt as if she were literally having an out-of-body experience.
And suddenly, without warning, Adam had drawn away and she came crashing down to earth like a speeding meteorite. A very confused meteorite.
She was accustomed to men being the aggressors, to having to somehow diplomatically hold them at bay without hurting their feelings or their egos. But this had been the other way around. Adam had been the one who had pulled back. And she had been the one who ultimately pushed.
Very simply, thereâd been something about Adam that had turned her inside out. Their night together was the stuff of fantasies.
And then, just like that, all her thoughts centered around him. She couldnât wait until the next time they were together, couldnât wait to hear the sound of his voice, to catch a whiff of the scent that was the combination of his shaving cream mixing with his aftershave.
Adam had become her sun and anytime she wasnât around him, she felt as if sheâd been plunged into soul-consuming darkness.
What a crock.
How could she, a heretofore intelligent woman, have been so blind, so dumb?
Smitten teenage girlsâvery young smitten teenage girlsâfelt this way, not a woman who practiced veterinarian medicine, who was a responsible, levelheaded and dedicated person.
Except that she had.
Into every paradise, a snake must slither and her paradise was no different. It occurred shortly after the first timeâthe only timeâthat they made love.
Made love.
The phrase lingered now in her brain like a haunting refrain.
Even today, knowing what she knew, it was still hard not to feel the excitement pulsing through her body at the mere memory of those precious, exquisite moments sheâd spent lost in Adamâs arms, in his embrace. Even though it seemed impossible, he was simultaneously the most gentle, caring, yet passionate lover ever created. And he had been hers.
Looking back, she could honestly say, if only to herself, that they hadnât made love. They had made poetry.
Remembering the moment, Eve felt her body aching for him.
âStop it,â she upbraided herself.
Tessa raised her head, this time quickly, as if she was ready to dart away, afraid that sheâd caused her mistress some displeasure. Displeasure that brought punishment with it.
Eve instantly felt guilty. âNo, not you, girl,â she said in a soothing voice, running her hand over the dogâs head and stroking it. âIâm just talking to myself.â She looked at the dog and smiled sadly. âToo bad you canât talk, then maybe my thoughts wouldnât keep getting carried away like this.â
Calmed, Tessa lowered her head again, resting it on her paws. She was asleep in less than a minute, this time snoring gently.
Eve smiled at her, shaking her head. âI love you the way you are, but I wish you were human.â
She craved companionship, someone to communicate with. But her father was gone. He had died less than a month after sheâd come back home. Heartbroken, sheâd handled all the funeral arrangements. Angela and her family had come down on the day of the funeral and had left by its end. Angela had left a trail of excuses in her wake. Eve didnât blame her. Angela and her family had a life to get back to.
It was several days after her fatherâs funeral, as she wandered around the empty house, looking for a place for herself, that she finally had to admit what she had been trying desperately to ignore. She was pregnant.
At least her father had been spared that, Eve thought, forever trying to look on the bright side of things.
Eve knew he would have been there for her, supporting herâunlike her sisterâno matter what her decision regarding the babyâs future. But somewhere deep down inside, Eve was fairly certain her father would have felt disappointed. Heâd always thought of her as perfect.
Again, she shook her head, her sad smile barely moving the corners of her mouth. âFraid not, Dad. So far from perfect, it would boggle your mind.â
Just then, she felt a sharp pain. The baby was kicking. Again. It had been restless all day.
Probably tired of its closed quarters, Eve thought. Maybe he or she was claustrophobic, the way she was.
Without thinking, Eve lifted one hand from the keyboard and placed it over the swell of her abdomen, massaging the area that was the origin of the pain this time, even though it did no good.
Was it her imagination, or was she growing bigger and bigger by the hour?
âWonât be long now, baby,â she murmured to her stomach.
She had a little more than two weeks to go. Part of her couldnât wait to finally have this all over with, to give birth and meet this little person who had turned her world completely upside down. The other part of her was content to let this state continue. She was terrified of the delivery. Not of what she imagined would be the pain, sheâd helped birth enough animals to know exactly what to expect in that respect. No, she was afraid of what lay ahead after the birthing pains had subsided. When the real challenge kicked in.
âYou know itâs selfish of you to keep it,â Angela had told her for the umpteenth time when sheâd called last week. There was a knowing air of superiority in her sisterâs voice. Angela was convinced she always knew what was best. âIt needs a mother and a father. Since you decided to have it, you really should give it up for adoption.â
ââItâ is a baby,â Eve had shot back, one of the few times sheâd lost her temper. But she was thoroughly annoyed at the flippant, cavalier way her sister was talking to her. Angela was acting as if she had the inside track on how to live life the right way just because she was married and had the idyllic number of children: two, a boy and a girl. âAnd what the baby needs is a mother who loves unconditionally.â
âObviously,â had been Angelaâs snide retort. Eve knew that her older sister referred not to her loving the baby, but to the situation that had resulted in the creation of this baby. âLook, why wonât you tell the father that he has a responsibilityââ
Eve cut her short. âBecause I wonât, thatâs all. Subject closed,â sheâd said firmly.
She wasnât about to tell Angela the reason she wouldnât notify Adam of his paternity. Even under perfect conditions, she wouldnât have wanted the father of her child to feel obligated to âstep up and do the right thing,â as Angela had declared. When she did get married, it would be because the man who had her heart wanted to marry her, not because he felt he had to marry her.
And conditions were far from perfect. She hadnât even told Angela Adamâs name, much less what it was that had sent her running back home to get away from the potential heartache that Adam Smytheâif that was even his nameârepresented.
Eve closed her eyes, remembering that night. She might have even still been in Santa Barbara, running the animal clinic there, if she hadnât overheard Adam on the phone. Closing early for the night, sheâd decided to surprise Adam and arrive early for their date. He was on the telephone, his back to her, talking to a potential customer. As she listened, waiting for him to finish, she realized that he wasnât talking to a customer about one of the books in his shop, but someone calling him about obtaining drugs.
Horror filled her as she realized that the man who had lit up her world, who was her babyâs father, was one of the lowest life-forms on this earth: a drug dealer.
The bookstore was just a cover.
Her soul twisted in disappointment. She couldnât even bring herself to confront him, to demand to know why he hadnât told her he was immersed in this dark world before theyâd gotten involved with one another.
Before sheâd fallen in love with him.
Sheâd felt so sick, so betrayed and so lost. Sheâd slipped out of the store quickly and silently. Hurrying to her apartment, sheâd called him, struggling to hide her anger and hurt, and told Adam that she wasnât feeling well. Sympathetic, heâd offered to come over to keep her company, but sheâd turned him down, saying she was afraid she might be contagious. Promising to call him the next day with an update, sheâd hung up.
It took her less than an hour to pack.
Sheâd left Adam a note, telling him she knew what he was involved in and begging him to get out before he became just another dead statistic. And then, after calling the clinic and telling her assistant that there was an emergency and she had to leave, Eve did just that.
All water under the bridge, she told herself now wearily. Canât unring a bell. Adam was what he wasâand she was pregnant. She was just going to have to make the best of it.
Right now, that actually involved doing something else sheâd never thought she would do: pouring out her heart to a perfect stranger.
But then, that was exactly what made it so safe and cathartic. She was never going to see the stranger sheâd found online, never going to meet MysteryMom, the woman who ran the support Web site sheâd discovered several weeks ago. At the time, she hadnât thought she would write more than once, but venting, getting it all out, proved to be almost euphoric. And it really did make her feel better to unburden herself like this, cloaked in anonymity. Though she wanted to be, she just couldnât remain tight-lipped right now.
Besides, confession was supposed to be good for the soul, right?
God knew, she hadnât intended on going back to the Web site when sheâd sat down tonight, but it had been a long, trying day and after hunting for answers regarding her nearly blind patient, answers that had turned out not to be very optimistic. Sheâd found herself drawn back to MysteryMom and the womanâs easygoing, low-keyed common sense. It was like having a friend, and right now, she could stand to have a friend. A female friend who seemed to know exactly what she was going through.
Once she logged on, all it had taken were a few well-intentioned questions from MysteryMom and suddenly the floodgates had been tapped and Eve found herself typing so fast, there was almost smoke coming from her fingers.
Maybe tomorrow, sheâd regret all this, Eve thought philosophically. But then, how could she possibly be in any worse shape than she already was? Wildly in love nine months ago, then wildly disappointedâand now, wildly pregnant.
Hell of a journey, she thought, typing words to that effect to the sympathetic MysteryMom.
And then Eve stopped, leaning back in her chair. She glanced toward her sleeping shadow. âI just hope that âMysteryMomâ isnât some cigar chomping, hairy-knuckled oaf getting his jollies by pretending to be a sympathetic single mom,â she said to Tessa.
Tessa merely yawned and went back to sleeping.
Eve was about to type another thought when she heard the doorbell ring.
More trick or treaters.
With a sigh, Eve gripped the arms on her chair and pushed herself up.
She missed being able to spring to her feet, but she supposed it could be worse. At least she could still see her feet. When Angela had been pregnant with her first child, Renee, she couldnât see her feet after entering her seventh month.
Tessa was on all four of hers, padding quietly behind her, a four-legged, furry shadow determined to remain close.
Eve passed a mirror on her way to the front door. âAt least I donât look like a blimp,â she consoled herself.
A goblin, a fairy princess and what looked like a robot, none of whom could have been over ten, shouted âTrick or treat!â at her the moment she opened the door. Delighted, Eve grabbed a handful of candy from the bowl she had placed by the front door and divided the candy between them.
The goblin paused, relishing his booty, and obviously staring at her. âWhat are you supposed to be?â
Eve didnât even hesitate. âA pumpkin.â It sounded better to her than âbeached whale.â
âBut youâre not orange,â the robot protested.
Eve snapped her fingers. âKnew I forgot something. Thanks for letting me know.â
Only the fairy princess said nothing beyond, âThank you,â looking at her knowingly, as if, even at that age, there was an unconscious bond that existed within the female gender.
And then her little visitors ran off, laughing, all beneath the distant, watchful scrutiny of one of their parents.
As she slowly closed her front door, Eve realized that the feeling was back. The one that whispered there was someone out there, watching her. Hoping to either catch him or her, or render a death knell to the unnerving feeling, she swung open her door again and looked around.
Nothing.
Again.
She frowned, closing the door all the way this time. The excitement over, Tessa turned away from the door. âIf there is someone out there, promise youâll rip them limb from limb if they try to break in, Tessa.â
The dog gave no indication that she heard any of the request. Instead, she trotted back to the office and reclaimed her position beneath the desk.
âI feel so safe now,â Eve murmured to the dog as she lowered herself into the office chair again and once more immersed herself in the comforting words of MysteryMom. It wasnât that she was a believer in the old saying that misery loved company. It was just that knowing someone else had gone through what she was going through and survived made her feel more heartened.
It was something to cling to.
